Worship

Every time, when we walk through the church door and go to our seats, what are we expecting out of the service? Are you fulfilling the obligations of being a christian, socializing, passing time or giving God His moment?

It is sometimes difficult to get into the spirit of Worship, and I do understand it through experience. But, reminiscing the time I was in Thailand, and perhaps Sibu, something hit me. The hunger for God was at a total different level, the experience of seeing them cry out to God, with strong faith that it would make a difference, breaks my heart.

In Thailand, I remembered an experience where a Pastor was seriously facing problem in paying the fees for his church construction after feeling lead to start up one. He was in great distress. One of the days we were there, Pastor Somsak's wife spoke up to the congregation about his problem, yet didn't voice anything about the sum of money he needed. Through God's voice speaking to the people's heart, the offering collected was enough to cover all the expenses. They were poor people, and I mean really poor, farmers mostly, yet they made it, because it was God's plan, it was His will.

When worship sessions were conducted in the different places I went, it was obvious that the language used was different, yet that made a strong stir in my heart. For like we sing it, one day every knee will bow, every tongue will confess, that You are God, I felt that happening just in front of me. Worshiping in other language to the same God, the feeling you get from it is just indescribable.

At those moments, I felt sorry for that even though I understood all that I sing during worship sessions in church, I sometimes barely practice what I sang.

Worship is not about the words, it's about you, and God, and the good time praising Him with a thankful heart. Doing it without the words, without the understanding of what you're singing could often take us to a higher comprehension of what worship is about.

Praise You Lord, for every worship song that exists throughout the nations, it might sound different, yet, it's the same You, and that's great. One day all knees will bow, all tongues will confess, that You're God. May it be according to what You will. Amen

Love

If only I could love like You did Lord..........

Sorry......

手足

手足只的两个字，所以只有两个知
手足只的两个字，感觉点，只有你会知

Haha, have I found that person yet?

To me, it's an accomplishment in life to have one. 10 Things I wanna do before I die? Find one.

A Cry

While watching movies, I often shed a few drops of tears here and there. The main reason for which I cry in people achieving something great, is the fact that I understood the hardship they went through in order to gain that short instantaneous moment of joy. I myself was once a nobody, criticized, despised, even hated. And all the hardship I went through that brought me to where I stand today, all the acknowledgment I receive, I praise God, and I feel contentment in it.

On the other hand, I also cry when I encounter scenes of which people confessing their love wholeheartedly with indescribably wonderful words. I've longed to hear those words, and feel that love. I know Your love God, but I wanna feel it, like all the time, in every moment of my life. Sent forth Your angels to brighten my days with loving words. As a little word makes a whole lot of difference to me, I give praise to You for everyone in my life who had given me even the slightest feeling of care through their lovely words., blessed be them who speaks of good.

Losing

Things I've been through recently just tore me in pieces.

Going through all these yet having to put up a smile is just too devastating to be true.

Losing - one of my greatest fears i relationship just came again like a lightning storm, sudden and unwarned.

True enough, the greatest thing on earth is love, yet the same time, the most frustrating thing ever, for there is never certainty.

Handling relationships is simply like baking, no one can be certain of what turns out, and the process is often messy.

Middle men are simply idiots, cause they always get squished like sandwiches.

All I want LORD, is peace LORD. The difficulties, I surrender it into Your Arms. My worldly wisdom and capabilities are just not fit for these things I face LORD, and I need You LORD. Anxiety is pain LORD, anxiety is tragic. All that turns out, I give praise LORD. Just lead me to the Cross. Amen

Nostalgia

Thinking back of my high school days, I really don't remember doing anything in school that was out of boundaries. Besides the occasional sleep in class, and being late all the time, I guess I was a pretty decent and attentive student.

With all that academic activities I have, I had practically no time for fun stuff. All the recesses I remember spending them either in the music room practicing, or either at the veranda or library training for public elocution. It was pretty hard to find time to do unproductive stuff like talk with my friends, getting to know them better in a sense. When I am back to class, sometimes I was just too tired, and slept, and other times, simply had to pay attention to the lessons to catch up.

Recalling my last relationship was sad, I was pretty much a jerk back then I guess, I didn't know how to treat her right, and the fact that I knew she cried a lot just made me felt worst. Pretty sorry for everything I've done, and, I wish you all the best for the future.

Please bless her LORD, and her family, that they would have peace and joy and love and strength for each new day. Amen.