Love is about going all out....

常聽說世界愛沒長久，哪裡會有愛無盡頭，
塵俗的愛只在乎曾擁有，一刻燦爛便要走。
而我卻確信愛是恆久，碰到了你已無別求，
無從解釋，不可說明的愛，千秋過後仍長存不朽。

誰人受痛苦被懸掛在木頭，至高的愛盡見於刺穿的手。
看！血在流反映愛沒保留，持續不死的愛到萬世不休，
惟求奉上生命全歸主所有，要將一切盡獻於我主的手，
我已決定今生再沒所求，惟望得主稱讚已足夠。

Intepretation (in case you don't read Chinese):

Verse 1:

I often hear that love in this world does not last, that it's impossible to find love that meets no end,

In the secular world, love concerns only with temporal satisfaction, it may shine for awhile, but then fades without a sight.

Verse 2:

But I cling on to the belief that love lasts forever, that since I met You, nothing else matters.

Assured that the indescribable unobtainable love You've shown will blossom and grow without withering through all ages.

Chorus:

Who was the One that suffered all pain and was crucified at the cross,

the One that had the highest and greatest love demonstrated through the nail pieced hands.

The blood that flowed signified His love that was all out for us, a love that never fades.

All that I ask for now is to offer up my life to You, putting all that I have into the palm of Your hands.

I've made the decision to forgo my desires, and hope only for the affirmation that You're pleased with what I've done.

This moment

Well, my mum just departed for Malaysia, and although outwardly, I still had to put up the I-am-fine face, but I can't help to feel the pinch.

It's terrible for all emotions to surge at this moment as exams are like days away, and a aching heart wouldn't do any good to help me focus.

All I wish for right now is a holiday, and apparently it wouldn't come true before my 4 killer exam papers.

I just don't know how to express it in words, but all I felt like saying was that "I need you now", "mum, I need you now."

Dear Lord Jesus, I need You to be the strength, to be my strength, to help me focus, to help me live. I need to feel You by my side right now, I need You..... I really do....

Deep Thoughts

I really couldn't get over with the whole love scene now.....

Everything seems so awkward

There is no longer the privilege to be so mesmerized about someone, dwell in it, feel butterflies and.....

Everything everyone thinks about now, is taking action, to get together....

It certainly isn't to blame, since you wouldn't have the certainty of seeing that someone every single other day, like in high school....

I can't tolerate the thought that I am 22...... There is so much out there, so much I couldn't be sure of....

On one hand, I felt unaccomplished, on the other, I know I had to go on

I miss the feeling of being in all that love drama, all the ups and downs....

Now, the only thing that comes up to mind, is being unwanted......

I've constantly wanted to improve myself, to be the best I possibly can be...

I always dream high, aim high.....

But one time after the other, I am struck by the passing boulders that seem so impossible to overcome....

Push on, I will get there, I told myself.....

I really wanted to thank some friends who made me realize, how pessimistic I am, at least in quite a few things...

I really felt it this instance, yet I couldn't help it, it's one thing that makes me feel alive, it's the one thing that makes me me.... It's my motto that I must improve, I must strive...

I felt the pressure of the world on me, yet no one could or would hold the key to release it all....

I simply wouldn't let them... I need to be the tough Alvin, I couldn't fall back, not this time, everytime..

Despite how much I missed the tangible kisses, hugs, I knew, the me now is not worthy of it, and that I need to be better......

Be Better...

How I wish I could really say "Let them look, stare, and talk all they want, I don't care!"

That's still not happening, not now, not ever.....

Australia

Yea, I've just landed in Australia in about 7 hours ago. To be honest, I was extremely astonished with the frequent rainbows in this land. Today itself, I probably saw 5-7, and 2 at the same time. It was so pretty I insisted the gal who was sitting beside me on the flight to seek a peep, I even offered to change seats with her since I was at the window seat. She kinda got shocked I guess.

I really would love to thank God that He has truly provided me with all that I need. He gave me a perfect farewell, a companion to talk to in the plane where all entertainment facilities were obsolete, a nice morning view of Australia's Gold Coast from bird's eye view, and also for welcoming friends who took the trouble to pick me up and walk me to the bank, cook me breakfast, and provide me with temporary accommodation.

Well, to be honest, I am still suffering from some form of jet lag and could hardly stir up the enthusiasm to do whatsoever. It's been a great day, and by far, Australia is great!!!!

Departure

Can't wait till the day I say goodbye.....
Starting anew, I've got lots of resolutions to accomplish...
Lots of crazy thoughts I feel like fulfilling
And it's another lap of life's journey to explore and discover

I want to make a difference,
I want to be at the forefront,
till I find you, till I find you....

God, through the times of pain and trial, You've walked me through, and all I ask Lord, is that in this new year, I would be more satisfied, more contented, and most importantly more friendly and loving.

I would love to meet lots of new people, and have the opportunity to understand them well.

All that I have in mind Lord might not be of righteousness, it might not be of Your will and Your way, but as I explore, please be sure to pull me back when I've gone too far off, for there is nothing more important than being in Your presence. But through the processes, would it be selfish if I ask for a little pleasure? You know best.... You know best!!