Words

Friendship can always bring about unlimited joy, but at some point, it does also bring frustration and annoyance. For the many times I felt annoyed, I always choose to voice out, of which I would wanna learn how not to. Sometimes things just goes on better without me making a great deal out of it, just SHUT UP, and I believe the storm would be over soon enough.

And, assuming that the way you treat people determines the way people treat you, I think I should really evaluate my speech before saying it out, like thoroughly.

Lord, I am feeling plain uncomfortable, and help me to get out of it please. I don't think I can do this myself. Help me to feel more for the people around me and less for myself, and stir me with the Holy Spirit whenever I would make a bad remark. Thanks Lord, Amen.

LIFE LIFE LIFE

Well, life has been great for the couple of days, and all the outings are completely sparkling the dreadful HELP college life. However, as life goes by, it starts to seem a little lonely.

I know I am well famous for not being moved with the relationship crap, yet, I kinda feel that it's the time to really start trying to bond with someone, and hoping for all that I can get. I don't wanna sound desperate or anything, yet, considering the fact that I am well 21, it kinda triggered the thought of having someone, and the fact that I am moving in the land of the kangaroos next year, stirred the compulsion that I really could use a helping hand to take care of me when I fall.

Not that it's a sign to start hunting like a wolf or being insane about everything that comes across sight, yet, I think I should really consider being more vigilant of the upcoming acquaintances and check out whether if Ms. Right is hidden in the cluster.

Although I admit that there are still lots to worry about, and the overwhelming preparation would in all ways turn me off, I really do need to rely on You LORD to give me a direction and affirmation that I could do just fine.

AMEN.

Friends

People should start teaching me the definition of friends, for I've long forgotten it's meaning. Redefining it might help me find some balance in life, I hope.

Unagreeableness

Sometimes, I feel very sorry for being unagreeable, but like a deep rooted trait, it takes a long long time to remove.

I notice that when I get unhappy or so-called "emo" for whatsoever reason, I kinda explicit this characteristic of mine very often. I guess it's pretty much why I perceive myself as a jerk.

Since high school, this trait kinda got me into trouble all the time. I just don't agree on many things people claim, sometimes because of different perception, and other times because I just felt like annoying the shit out of them. I don't like to say "yes" and give in, unless it's too insignificant, or the fact that I do really agree.

While contemplating the cause of it, I kinda got confuse whether it was debate that made me the way I am, or was it the way I am that got me into debate. No matter what the answer might be, I think I should really try being neutral at things sometimes.

Sorry to those I have offended because of my unagreeableness, and for the many times I was in a bad mood and felt just so much like "punching someone in the face" by reacting annoyingly to everything you guys say about anything, I am sooooooo sorry.

Change me LORD, help me to be a more optimistic and cheerful guy, teach me to be humble and thankful towards the friends I have, and help me be more neutral or agreeable towards things they say or convey. Thank You LORD. Amen