Lost

I don't know since when and why I started feeling this.....
I don't know when I could get over it........
I don't know who caused it.......
But I know, I am not joyous now, neither sad thou.

The only time I can find complete contentment is when I am with You, when I worship You....
During this time, I feel wanted, I feel tightly held, I do not feel like I need to keep striving for approval, keep striving towards the seemingly unachievable worldly standards.

You made me who I am Lord, and You know what's best for me.
And from experience, I know much patience and endurance is required....
Lead me Lord, far from the old me, I desperately need a change, and more importantly I need You.

I am afraid Lord, I am..... Just worried that someday I would not have the strength to carry on.
Every step I take Lord, I pray it would take me closer to You.
I pray that all that struggle I am going through right now Lord, would lead me to the cross, to the eternal treasures You've promised.
And from experience once again, I have faith that it is true.

Please try to go a little easier on me, I am feeling fragile, and I know I would break, anytime....
Send me angels Lord, angels that understands me inside out, who speak faith and courage into my soul, who would willingly be my sword, and my shield, and everything I need to fight the battle... Angels who would lift me and prevent me from falling from the cliff of life.

All this I ask in Jesus Name, Amen.