Dear Father Lord

I forgot how long it was since I once wrote in this blog, it felt like forever.

Father LORD, I surrender my life once again to you Lord. I know I have been an unworthy Christian all this while, and am ready to accept changes. I know that it would not be instantaneous, but rather a progressive journey.

You have never failed me LORD, but I on the other hand have been always falling away. Oh Jesus, what could I do to change my past? What could I do to erase the pain and suffering and the sinful lust of my youth which entraps me in misery all these while?

Have I been so ignorant all these while that I forgotten the simplest message of which there is nothing I could do, that all I needed was His grace and mercy, and falling into His arms once again makes me even clearer that nothing could replace Him, nothing at all.

God is good, You are good Father Jesus, and I know you would never put us through obstacles we couldn't bare. While criticism of Christianity never ends, It made me even stronger, for I know the many wonders You've done in my life, I know it's not delusion, and it's never even comparable to an imaginary friend. You are real LORD, from the assurance of Your voice, from the promises that never fails, I believe LORD.

I know LORD that You've given me more than enough to clear my doubts, but many times, temptation I fall into. I am willing LORD, strike me with your Holy Spirit, change me from within. Provide me my daily schedules and help me be persistent, for my one and only prayer that would always remain, is for my faith to grow everlastingly, and that one day, I would proudly carry the name of a Believer of Jesus Christ.

Amen.