Hey peeps, few weeks back I couldn't really comprehend the time I spend alone at home, feeling like I've somehow left something behind. Now that I've made things clear, I would gladly announce that I am refreshed!!
Going through the ups and downs of life, I somehow learn that despite liking it or not, you've gotta live the present. God gave us this "present", and we do not reject gifts right ? :-D
From the road trip to Penang weeks back, I was unintentionally attracted to Taylor Swift's music, thanks to Arnold for bringing the CD along...
To-Do list for the Week:
1) Manually Sign up my subjects and visiting the bursary.
2) Study hard for next Monday's theory exam
3) Cook for my beloved Ex-Games Committee Mates
4) Enjoy myself!!
Thanks LORD for the joy I am experiencing, Amen.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Frustration
I am so lost, I don't feel like going to college for those boring lectures, sick of facing the idiotic studying environment in HELP, and most of all, tired of getting up from bed at 6 am.
What kind of a crazy timetable is that, I mean seriously, I thought I was old enough to get my sleep until 8, but I guess I have got to continue the routine of 6ish for some trashy management classes.
First week of the new semester is down without even attending, I was just too *busy* to even bother.It however kills me to even think I need to go there the first day after my mission trip to Sibu. Come on, the small guy here needs his rest.
I am doubting my capability of sitting put in the classrooms with no friends to babble to. The typical way of getting over it is to either sleep with my eyes open, or perhaps stern focus on the lecture, whichever easier (obviously the first.......duh~)
This tragedy lasts through the year....get me? through the year........ Why on earth does anyone chooses business besides the job security it claims to provide, nothing.....NOTHING
Argh, I feel awful complaining about all this ***t, but I couldn't help but explode all my anger here in the replacement of flaring my "so called" classmates' faces off with my I-don't-give-a-shit look.....
Peace be with me.....Give me the patience o LORD, need you so much to take my life much easier....
O dang, not forgetting the music classes that comes in package with the assignments and exams......PUH-LEASE help me.....
What kind of a crazy timetable is that, I mean seriously, I thought I was old enough to get my sleep until 8, but I guess I have got to continue the routine of 6ish for some trashy management classes.
First week of the new semester is down without even attending, I was just too *busy* to even bother.It however kills me to even think I need to go there the first day after my mission trip to Sibu. Come on, the small guy here needs his rest.
I am doubting my capability of sitting put in the classrooms with no friends to babble to. The typical way of getting over it is to either sleep with my eyes open, or perhaps stern focus on the lecture, whichever easier (obviously the first.......duh~)
This tragedy lasts through the year....get me? through the year........ Why on earth does anyone chooses business besides the job security it claims to provide, nothing.....NOTHING
Argh, I feel awful complaining about all this ***t, but I couldn't help but explode all my anger here in the replacement of flaring my "so called" classmates' faces off with my I-don't-give-a-shit look.....
Peace be with me.....Give me the patience o LORD, need you so much to take my life much easier....
O dang, not forgetting the music classes that comes in package with the assignments and exams......PUH-LEASE help me.....
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Agony (Maybe not that severe LOL)
Once again going through the vicious cycle of sin thrills every inch of my soul, tearing me apart unconsciously. I was worried, that literally one day, I would be of the world, the world of which wrong seems right.
Longing just to see or even feel You has been difficult LORD, at this point of my life, it's no longer a matter of clinging unto Your promises to forgive as we repent, but I need You to hug me tight with all Your might, to comfort the lost compassion and faith that faded into dust through time and temptations.
Life has been dull without Your presence and Your guidance.
Whenever I was in need of worldly things, I always say that I would give up everything but You.
At this very moment I wrote these words, I realize one very important fact, that in us are the temples of which Your spirit resides, and therefore we shouldn't do anything that would defile Your name by exploiting our own bodies.
I pray for everyone out there who are facing difficult moments of their life during the close chinese new year season that we would cling on to our faith, realizing that no matter what, You LORD would calm our hearts as we seek You day by day.
Amen.
Longing just to see or even feel You has been difficult LORD, at this point of my life, it's no longer a matter of clinging unto Your promises to forgive as we repent, but I need You to hug me tight with all Your might, to comfort the lost compassion and faith that faded into dust through time and temptations.
Life has been dull without Your presence and Your guidance.
Whenever I was in need of worldly things, I always say that I would give up everything but You.
At this very moment I wrote these words, I realize one very important fact, that in us are the temples of which Your spirit resides, and therefore we shouldn't do anything that would defile Your name by exploiting our own bodies.
I pray for everyone out there who are facing difficult moments of their life during the close chinese new year season that we would cling on to our faith, realizing that no matter what, You LORD would calm our hearts as we seek You day by day.
Amen.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Give Thanks
It's been a long time since I last posted anything, maybe because I just didn't gather enough emotion as motivation.
There are plenty of trash that are hidden in my heart, things that words can't convey, and I often am timid enough to keep it strictly to myself while squeezing into other people's business to drive myself away from my own problems, or just perhaps temporarily divert my focus.
It is common that many things had happened since the last post, I mean in all aspects, but I sincerely am only concern about one great thing, which is to Give Thanks to the Lord for all that he has done and brought me through.
I blame myself Lord, many times, for failing to obey Your commandments and even the simplest things You've intended me to or not to do, despite how strongly Your Spirit was calling out to me.
Forgive me O Lord, Forgive me.
I wasn't an obedient child Lord, but I know Lord, that I want You more than anything.
The devil tempts me to do many unforgivably wrong doings, and I stupidly followed, thinking it was only human nature, what everybody does.
I was foolish Lord, for we are not Everybody, we are Somebody whom are chosen by You to accomplish Your will, to serve and not to be served.
In the days to come, I pray Lord that it will be more and more of You and less of me. All my days and all my years, teach me how to become a faithful servant of Yours, who patiently labors for the harvest, to see that one day Your Name would be glorified in all nations, and that all will kneel and worship You O Lord.
I pray that people around me, my friends would be greatly blessed by Your grace, and You would enable the seeds to be sowed at the perfect timing of Yours Lord, and that all would be reunited in heaven.
I Give Thanks Lord, for You have sent Your only beloved son Jesus to die on the cross for us, so that we can be forgiven for our sins.
"My heart and my strength, many times they fail;
but there is one truth, that always will prevail;
God is the strength of my heart."
I thank You Lord, for smiling at me, at times that I feel like a complete jerk, a sinner not worthy of You. I give You praise.
Rain down on me, wash me over from what's born within I cannot unbind, and cast away the evil spirit that dwells within me to commit the sins of the world.
All I need is You.....Lord....
There are plenty of trash that are hidden in my heart, things that words can't convey, and I often am timid enough to keep it strictly to myself while squeezing into other people's business to drive myself away from my own problems, or just perhaps temporarily divert my focus.
It is common that many things had happened since the last post, I mean in all aspects, but I sincerely am only concern about one great thing, which is to Give Thanks to the Lord for all that he has done and brought me through.
I blame myself Lord, many times, for failing to obey Your commandments and even the simplest things You've intended me to or not to do, despite how strongly Your Spirit was calling out to me.
Forgive me O Lord, Forgive me.
I wasn't an obedient child Lord, but I know Lord, that I want You more than anything.
The devil tempts me to do many unforgivably wrong doings, and I stupidly followed, thinking it was only human nature, what everybody does.
I was foolish Lord, for we are not Everybody, we are Somebody whom are chosen by You to accomplish Your will, to serve and not to be served.
In the days to come, I pray Lord that it will be more and more of You and less of me. All my days and all my years, teach me how to become a faithful servant of Yours, who patiently labors for the harvest, to see that one day Your Name would be glorified in all nations, and that all will kneel and worship You O Lord.
I pray that people around me, my friends would be greatly blessed by Your grace, and You would enable the seeds to be sowed at the perfect timing of Yours Lord, and that all would be reunited in heaven.
I Give Thanks Lord, for You have sent Your only beloved son Jesus to die on the cross for us, so that we can be forgiven for our sins.
"My heart and my strength, many times they fail;
but there is one truth, that always will prevail;
God is the strength of my heart."
I thank You Lord, for smiling at me, at times that I feel like a complete jerk, a sinner not worthy of You. I give You praise.
Rain down on me, wash me over from what's born within I cannot unbind, and cast away the evil spirit that dwells within me to commit the sins of the world.
All I need is You.....Lord....
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Elevate Youth Camp 2009
"Awesome" is the only word I could think of to describe the splendid Elevate Youth Camp, and I certainly still couldn't get enough of it.
The presence of God was so strong and the worship time was just lovely.
The people there were fun to talk to, and fellowship time was incomparable.
The message from Evangelist Carl Butler overwhelming and revealing.
I seriously would like to give praise and thank God for pouring His anointing and filling us with the Holy Spirit and thank God for the people around us in camp, whom we could fearlessly share our pain and sorrow.
Last but not least, I would also thank God for the games committee, namely Arnold, Jia Chek, Jia Chiun, Naomi, John M., for the games would not be even close to success without their assistance. Although sleeping at 3ish every day was certainly hectic and stressful, but I enjoyed being with you guys and getting to know you all better.
I certainly believe God would lead us through a journey of life we would never forget, and I trust in Him to bring us to greater heights and greater depths as long as we continue a long lasting intimate love relationship with Him. Help us LORD to persist our love with You, and to be faithful at all times. In Jesus Name, AMEN!!
The presence of God was so strong and the worship time was just lovely.
The people there were fun to talk to, and fellowship time was incomparable.
The message from Evangelist Carl Butler overwhelming and revealing.
I seriously would like to give praise and thank God for pouring His anointing and filling us with the Holy Spirit and thank God for the people around us in camp, whom we could fearlessly share our pain and sorrow.
Last but not least, I would also thank God for the games committee, namely Arnold, Jia Chek, Jia Chiun, Naomi, John M., for the games would not be even close to success without their assistance. Although sleeping at 3ish every day was certainly hectic and stressful, but I enjoyed being with you guys and getting to know you all better.
I certainly believe God would lead us through a journey of life we would never forget, and I trust in Him to bring us to greater heights and greater depths as long as we continue a long lasting intimate love relationship with Him. Help us LORD to persist our love with You, and to be faithful at all times. In Jesus Name, AMEN!!
Monday, December 7, 2009
Blah Blah~
Reminder: This is Going to be Yet Another Emo Post
The very minutes of this night I seriously feel pretty confused, trying very hard to hold on to the most optimistic view point I could possibly draw. The stress is making me so uncomfortable and eventually tearing me apart bit by bit.
The very dreams I had throughout live seems to vanish into dust, and confidence I once had about everything failed to strengthen my feet to keep me going. All these days, I often take breaks and spend intimate time with movies, for I believe it can be very educational and revealing.
Camp is here in like 1 day, and I totally lost myself, not a good start I guess. I just sincerely pray for God to pull me back up, and quench my thirst for the answers I am waiting.
The very minutes of this night I seriously feel pretty confused, trying very hard to hold on to the most optimistic view point I could possibly draw. The stress is making me so uncomfortable and eventually tearing me apart bit by bit.
The very dreams I had throughout live seems to vanish into dust, and confidence I once had about everything failed to strengthen my feet to keep me going. All these days, I often take breaks and spend intimate time with movies, for I believe it can be very educational and revealing.
Camp is here in like 1 day, and I totally lost myself, not a good start I guess. I just sincerely pray for God to pull me back up, and quench my thirst for the answers I am waiting.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Awesome Almighty God
Just went through three tiring days facilitating games at the prestigious VBS Camp. Honestly, the camp was splendid. It provided me time to bond with some fellow church mates namely Yee Shern, Jarrel, Alicia, Arthur, Jason, David, Sofia, Jin Yin, Melody, Wykit, Mei Li, Nicole, Noel etc., to learn drums (for around an hour?) from Jarrel my very helpful games partner, and most importantly to praise God and reconcile with Him.
To be truthful, my prayer time greatly reduced due to devilish temptations all around. The main power supply to push me back up came from the worships, and of course Jesus who directed the songs to play a role in my heart. Aunt Liling's message also somehow seemed to speak to the deepest part of my heart.
The 2 worship songs I loved was Because and All Things. Since the lyrics are all very catchy, I would post them here LOL!
Because
Because He gave His life
Because He bled and died
Because He rose again, I come
And I admit to God I am a sinner
And I repent and turn away from all my sin
I believe that Jesus is the son of God
And that He came into the world to save us all
And I confess my faith in Jesus as my Savior and my Lord
And I do this because of His great love
Because He loves me so
Because He makes me whole
Because He is my friend, I come
(chorus)
For the wages of sin is death
But the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ
(chorus)
So will you admit to God you are a sinner
And will you repent and turn away from all your sin
Will you believe that Jesus is the son of God
And that He came into the world to save us all
you confess your faith in Jesus as your Savior and your Lord
Will you do this, will you do this, will you do this
because of His great love
All Things
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
I will do my best to do what God says
I will obey everyday and trust Him to take care of me
in all things
Jesus helps me to do what I never thought I could
He shows me how all things work together for my good
So I will follow God's perfect plan for me
I will not be afraid of the future because I believe
In all things I will trust Him
In all things I will love Him
In all things I will praise Him
In all things I will obey Him
To be truthful, my prayer time greatly reduced due to devilish temptations all around. The main power supply to push me back up came from the worships, and of course Jesus who directed the songs to play a role in my heart. Aunt Liling's message also somehow seemed to speak to the deepest part of my heart.
The 2 worship songs I loved was Because and All Things. Since the lyrics are all very catchy, I would post them here LOL!
Because
Because He gave His life
Because He bled and died
Because He rose again, I come
And I admit to God I am a sinner
And I repent and turn away from all my sin
I believe that Jesus is the son of God
And that He came into the world to save us all
And I confess my faith in Jesus as my Savior and my Lord
And I do this because of His great love
Because He loves me so
Because He makes me whole
Because He is my friend, I come
(chorus)
For the wages of sin is death
But the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ
(chorus)
So will you admit to God you are a sinner
And will you repent and turn away from all your sin
Will you believe that Jesus is the son of God
And that He came into the world to save us all
you confess your faith in Jesus as your Savior and your Lord
Will you do this, will you do this, will you do this
because of His great love
All Things
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
I will do my best to do what God says
I will obey everyday and trust Him to take care of me
in all things
Jesus helps me to do what I never thought I could
He shows me how all things work together for my good
So I will follow God's perfect plan for me
I will not be afraid of the future because I believe
In all things I will trust Him
In all things I will love Him
In all things I will praise Him
In all things I will obey Him
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