Well, life has been great for the couple of days, and all the outings are completely sparkling the dreadful HELP college life. However, as life goes by, it starts to seem a little lonely.
I know I am well famous for not being moved with the relationship crap, yet, I kinda feel that it's the time to really start trying to bond with someone, and hoping for all that I can get. I don't wanna sound desperate or anything, yet, considering the fact that I am well 21, it kinda triggered the thought of having someone, and the fact that I am moving in the land of the kangaroos next year, stirred the compulsion that I really could use a helping hand to take care of me when I fall.
Not that it's a sign to start hunting like a wolf or being insane about everything that comes across sight, yet, I think I should really consider being more vigilant of the upcoming acquaintances and check out whether if Ms. Right is hidden in the cluster.
Although I admit that there are still lots to worry about, and the overwhelming preparation would in all ways turn me off, I really do need to rely on You LORD to give me a direction and affirmation that I could do just fine.
AMEN.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Friends
People should start teaching me the definition of friends, for I've long forgotten it's meaning. Redefining it might help me find some balance in life, I hope.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Unagreeableness
Sometimes, I feel very sorry for being unagreeable, but like a deep rooted trait, it takes a long long time to remove.
I notice that when I get unhappy or so-called "emo" for whatsoever reason, I kinda explicit this characteristic of mine very often. I guess it's pretty much why I perceive myself as a jerk.
Since high school, this trait kinda got me into trouble all the time. I just don't agree on many things people claim, sometimes because of different perception, and other times because I just felt like annoying the shit out of them. I don't like to say "yes" and give in, unless it's too insignificant, or the fact that I do really agree.
While contemplating the cause of it, I kinda got confuse whether it was debate that made me the way I am, or was it the way I am that got me into debate. No matter what the answer might be, I think I should really try being neutral at things sometimes.
Sorry to those I have offended because of my unagreeableness, and for the many times I was in a bad mood and felt just so much like "punching someone in the face" by reacting annoyingly to everything you guys say about anything, I am sooooooo sorry.
Change me LORD, help me to be a more optimistic and cheerful guy, teach me to be humble and thankful towards the friends I have, and help me be more neutral or agreeable towards things they say or convey. Thank You LORD. Amen
I notice that when I get unhappy or so-called "emo" for whatsoever reason, I kinda explicit this characteristic of mine very often. I guess it's pretty much why I perceive myself as a jerk.
Since high school, this trait kinda got me into trouble all the time. I just don't agree on many things people claim, sometimes because of different perception, and other times because I just felt like annoying the shit out of them. I don't like to say "yes" and give in, unless it's too insignificant, or the fact that I do really agree.
While contemplating the cause of it, I kinda got confuse whether it was debate that made me the way I am, or was it the way I am that got me into debate. No matter what the answer might be, I think I should really try being neutral at things sometimes.
Sorry to those I have offended because of my unagreeableness, and for the many times I was in a bad mood and felt just so much like "punching someone in the face" by reacting annoyingly to everything you guys say about anything, I am sooooooo sorry.
Change me LORD, help me to be a more optimistic and cheerful guy, teach me to be humble and thankful towards the friends I have, and help me be more neutral or agreeable towards things they say or convey. Thank You LORD. Amen
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Our God is An Awesome God
Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.
[Matthew 4:4]
It is seemingly so true these days through all the blessings that came from Him. Last Sunday, when Pastor Sandy elaborated on the topic of Rejection. There was this particular thing she said, of which I sincerely see no flaw in.
She said, " We need to learn to forgive, to handle rejection, because as God's people, we will succeed in life through His will and power, and this often brings forth prejudices and despise of the world."
How true is that in our lives, dear brothers and sisters in Christ?
As we walk along the journey of life, have we not realize that many times, we are blessed with the riches of life without even having to plea and beg? The many coincidences that are in favor of our well-being happens too often to be taken as mere luck.
The second message that stroke my heart, was the idea of "our perception determines our reality".
How sweet and pleasing to the ears to hear from God.
I have always had issues with perceiving myself as the ideal person I want to be, and thus have many times failed due to the internal denial that I could be a better person.
Past rejections of my life has always made my days like a living hell, and words people say in the past tore my heart apart so widely it could hardly be healed. Yet, as Pastor Sandy said, the soul will feel the pain, yet the spirit can choose to forgive and cleanse us clean from grudge just by asking Him.
God, maybe I am far from being perfect, but I know everytime I stand before You, I am made complete, complete with Your sovereignty, completed by Your love and embrace.
The heart of worship came back to me in abundance lately, thank You Lord, for giving me all that I have now and I am grateful for all that is to come ahead, cause I know through the hard times, I could take refuge, and that through the happy moments, I have You to thank. Amen.
[Matthew 4:4]
It is seemingly so true these days through all the blessings that came from Him. Last Sunday, when Pastor Sandy elaborated on the topic of Rejection. There was this particular thing she said, of which I sincerely see no flaw in.
She said, " We need to learn to forgive, to handle rejection, because as God's people, we will succeed in life through His will and power, and this often brings forth prejudices and despise of the world."
How true is that in our lives, dear brothers and sisters in Christ?
As we walk along the journey of life, have we not realize that many times, we are blessed with the riches of life without even having to plea and beg? The many coincidences that are in favor of our well-being happens too often to be taken as mere luck.
The second message that stroke my heart, was the idea of "our perception determines our reality".
How sweet and pleasing to the ears to hear from God.
I have always had issues with perceiving myself as the ideal person I want to be, and thus have many times failed due to the internal denial that I could be a better person.
Past rejections of my life has always made my days like a living hell, and words people say in the past tore my heart apart so widely it could hardly be healed. Yet, as Pastor Sandy said, the soul will feel the pain, yet the spirit can choose to forgive and cleanse us clean from grudge just by asking Him.
God, maybe I am far from being perfect, but I know everytime I stand before You, I am made complete, complete with Your sovereignty, completed by Your love and embrace.
The heart of worship came back to me in abundance lately, thank You Lord, for giving me all that I have now and I am grateful for all that is to come ahead, cause I know through the hard times, I could take refuge, and that through the happy moments, I have You to thank. Amen.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Differences
Hanging out with different group of friends often bring forth different feelings and emotions.
I kinda feel a little awkward in the group I was once very attached with, due to the changes in me and the perception of humor that kinda differed.
Getting accustom to a new tradition and culture takes time, how long would it take for me to adapt to the change that is coming ahead?
The way things were a few months back and now has also greatly varied..... And, most of the time, I am reluctant to believe those changes ever happened, and silently wishing that everything would return to normal.
God, take us further, give us the sensitivity to feel what others have in mind, and help us to think from their perspective. Help us to forgive and to silently wait upon Your directions in all relationships we partake in. Let our past fade with time, our present with no regrets, and future with hope. In Jesus Name, AMEN.
I kinda feel a little awkward in the group I was once very attached with, due to the changes in me and the perception of humor that kinda differed.
Getting accustom to a new tradition and culture takes time, how long would it take for me to adapt to the change that is coming ahead?
The way things were a few months back and now has also greatly varied..... And, most of the time, I am reluctant to believe those changes ever happened, and silently wishing that everything would return to normal.
God, take us further, give us the sensitivity to feel what others have in mind, and help us to think from their perspective. Help us to forgive and to silently wait upon Your directions in all relationships we partake in. Let our past fade with time, our present with no regrets, and future with hope. In Jesus Name, AMEN.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
My Change
Routine
Lately I found out that I am so not into a routine lifestyle. I like everything to be unpredictable, especially the adrenaline rush that comes forth in the midst of dealing with the unforeseen circumstances.
Love
I kinda have a different perspective of this term since who knows when. From the time I was dreaming to meet the perfect one, to have the perfect kiss, the perfect night, the perfect life together, until now that I crave companionship, a shoulder to lean upon, and someone to depend on when I tumble and break.
Friendship
Once upon a time, I remembered I had no close friends, even to the point that I believed it was non-existence. Although I might not have a heap of them now, but more than enough for me to feel contented. Simple things you all say can go so deep to touch my heart, but the downside? critics could also stab my heart like the prowess assassin ever. Pros outweighs the cons thou, since I know in every critic lies a room for improvement and enrichment!
Trivia words that touched my heart:
Nxxxx: Text when you're back!
Cxxx: Call me if you need a ride home, I am perfectly fine with it. (2.00 am)
Strength
Trying to depend on God more. FAITH man!
Lately I found out that I am so not into a routine lifestyle. I like everything to be unpredictable, especially the adrenaline rush that comes forth in the midst of dealing with the unforeseen circumstances.
Love
I kinda have a different perspective of this term since who knows when. From the time I was dreaming to meet the perfect one, to have the perfect kiss, the perfect night, the perfect life together, until now that I crave companionship, a shoulder to lean upon, and someone to depend on when I tumble and break.
Friendship
Once upon a time, I remembered I had no close friends, even to the point that I believed it was non-existence. Although I might not have a heap of them now, but more than enough for me to feel contented. Simple things you all say can go so deep to touch my heart, but the downside? critics could also stab my heart like the prowess assassin ever. Pros outweighs the cons thou, since I know in every critic lies a room for improvement and enrichment!
Trivia words that touched my heart:
Nxxxx: Text when you're back!
Cxxx: Call me if you need a ride home, I am perfectly fine with it. (2.00 am)
Strength
Trying to depend on God more. FAITH man!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Reminiscence
Trying hard not to think too much.
I am such an idiot sometimes. My mind is so often bombarded with unhappy circumstances purely created in my imaginary world.
Going to Queensland in like 6 months kinda gives me no time to slack around doing nothing. I feel like being with the bunch of dearly friends I have for as long as I could, even until the point I feel more homely being with them than elsewhere.
"it doesn't matter what you do, but who you do it with"
This is seemingly so true these days.
There are often conflicts and problems that bloated out of a sudden, of which many of times caused difficult feelings or even onerous worries, I enjoyed the entire process. Not that I like it, but the fact that I know that these are parts and parcels that constructs our memory together.
May all the good be with us LORD, help us through the difficulties we face, and teach us the art of friendship in an even more in-dept manner. In Jesus' Precious Name, AMEN.
I am such an idiot sometimes. My mind is so often bombarded with unhappy circumstances purely created in my imaginary world.
Going to Queensland in like 6 months kinda gives me no time to slack around doing nothing. I feel like being with the bunch of dearly friends I have for as long as I could, even until the point I feel more homely being with them than elsewhere.
"it doesn't matter what you do, but who you do it with"
This is seemingly so true these days.
There are often conflicts and problems that bloated out of a sudden, of which many of times caused difficult feelings or even onerous worries, I enjoyed the entire process. Not that I like it, but the fact that I know that these are parts and parcels that constructs our memory together.
May all the good be with us LORD, help us through the difficulties we face, and teach us the art of friendship in an even more in-dept manner. In Jesus' Precious Name, AMEN.
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