Life through Jesus

Love is about going all out....

2011-07-23T06:31:00.000-07:00

常聽說世界愛沒長久，哪裡會有愛無盡頭，
塵俗的愛只在乎曾擁有，一刻燦爛便要走。
而我卻確信愛是恆久，碰到了你已無別求，
無從解釋，不可說明的愛，千秋過後仍長存不朽。

誰人受痛苦被懸掛在木頭，至高的愛盡見於刺穿的手。
看！血在流反映愛沒保留，持續不死的愛到萬世不休，
惟求奉上生命全歸主所有，要將一切盡獻於我主的手，
我已決定今生再沒所求，惟望得主稱讚已足夠。

Intepretation (in case you don't read Chinese):

Verse 1:

I often hear that love in this world does not last, that it's impossible to find love that meets no end,

In the secular world, love concerns only with temporal satisfaction, it may shine for awhile, but then fades without a sight.

Verse 2:

But I cling on to the belief that love lasts forever, that since I met You, nothing else matters.

Assured that the indescribable unobtainable love You've shown will blossom and grow without withering through all ages.

Chorus:

Who was the One that suffered all pain and was crucified at the cross,

the One that had the highest and greatest love demonstrated through the nail pieced hands.

The blood that flowed signified His love that was all out for us, a love that never fades.

All that I ask for now is to offer up my life to You, putting all that I have into the palm of Your hands.

I've made the decision to forgo my desires, and hope only for the affirmation that You're pleased with what I've done.

This moment

2011-06-11T12:34:00.001-07:00

Well, my mum just departed for Malaysia, and although outwardly, I still had to put up the I-am-fine face, but I can't help to feel the pinch.

It's terrible for all emotions to surge at this moment as exams are like days away, and a aching heart wouldn't do any good to help me focus.

All I wish for right now is a holiday, and apparently it wouldn't come true before my 4 killer exam papers.

I just don't know how to express it in words, but all I felt like saying was that "I need you now", "mum, I need you now."

Dear Lord Jesus, I need You to be the strength, to be my strength, to help me focus, to help me live. I need to feel You by my side right now, I need You..... I really do....

Deep Thoughts

2011-04-24T11:28:00.001-07:00

I really couldn't get over with the whole love scene now.....

Everything seems so awkward

There is no longer the privilege to be so mesmerized about someone, dwell in it, feel butterflies and.....

Everything everyone thinks about now, is taking action, to get together....

It certainly isn't to blame, since you wouldn't have the certainty of seeing that someone every single other day, like in high school....

I can't tolerate the thought that I am 22...... There is so much out there, so much I couldn't be sure of....

On one hand, I felt unaccomplished, on the other, I know I had to go on

I miss the feeling of being in all that love drama, all the ups and downs....

Now, the only thing that comes up to mind, is being unwanted......

I've constantly wanted to improve myself, to be the best I possibly can be...

I always dream high, aim high.....

But one time after the other, I am struck by the passing boulders that seem so impossible to overcome....

Push on, I will get there, I told myself.....

I really wanted to thank some friends who made me realize, how pessimistic I am, at least in quite a few things...

I really felt it this instance, yet I couldn't help it, it's one thing that makes me feel alive, it's the one thing that makes me me.... It's my motto that I must improve, I must strive...

I felt the pressure of the world on me, yet no one could or would hold the key to release it all....

I simply wouldn't let them... I need to be the tough Alvin, I couldn't fall back, not this time, everytime..

Despite how much I missed the tangible kisses, hugs, I knew, the me now is not worthy of it, and that I need to be better......

Be Better...

How I wish I could really say "Let them look, stare, and talk all they want, I don't care!"

That's still not happening, not now, not ever.....

Australia

2011-02-14T22:48:00.001-08:00

Yea, I've just landed in Australia in about 7 hours ago. To be honest, I was extremely astonished with the frequent rainbows in this land. Today itself, I probably saw 5-7, and 2 at the same time. It was so pretty I insisted the gal who was sitting beside me on the flight to seek a peep, I even offered to change seats with her since I was at the window seat. She kinda got shocked I guess.

I really would love to thank God that He has truly provided me with all that I need. He gave me a perfect farewell, a companion to talk to in the plane where all entertainment facilities were obsolete, a nice morning view of Australia's Gold Coast from bird's eye view, and also for welcoming friends who took the trouble to pick me up and walk me to the bank, cook me breakfast, and provide me with temporary accommodation.

Well, to be honest, I am still suffering from some form of jet lag and could hardly stir up the enthusiasm to do whatsoever. It's been a great day, and by far, Australia is great!!!!

Departure

2011-01-27T17:14:00.000-08:00

Can't wait till the day I say goodbye.....
Starting anew, I've got lots of resolutions to accomplish...
Lots of crazy thoughts I feel like fulfilling
And it's another lap of life's journey to explore and discover

I want to make a difference,
I want to be at the forefront,
till I find you, till I find you....

God, through the times of pain and trial, You've walked me through, and all I ask Lord, is that in this new year, I would be more satisfied, more contented, and most importantly more friendly and loving.

I would love to meet lots of new people, and have the opportunity to understand them well.

All that I have in mind Lord might not be of righteousness, it might not be of Your will and Your way, but as I explore, please be sure to pull me back when I've gone too far off, for there is nothing more important than being in Your presence. But through the processes, would it be selfish if I ask for a little pleasure? You know best.... You know best!!

Here I am longing for You

2010-12-10T09:41:00.000-08:00

Today I weep, I pray, that You would see my heart........

It would be all for nothing, if it wasn't for You.

All these months, I question my heart, and You know I do.

You know the reason why I refuse to play for you in worship, You will know the reason why.....

All is for Your glory God.

Please understand my heart.

Worship

2010-10-27T12:55:00.001-07:00

Every time, when we walk through the church door and go to our seats, what are we expecting out of the service? Are you fulfilling the obligations of being a christian, socializing, passing time or giving God His moment?

It is sometimes difficult to get into the spirit of Worship, and I do understand it through experience. But, reminiscing the time I was in Thailand, and perhaps Sibu, something hit me. The hunger for God was at a total different level, the experience of seeing them cry out to God, with strong faith that it would make a difference, breaks my heart.

In Thailand, I remembered an experience where a Pastor was seriously facing problem in paying the fees for his church construction after feeling lead to start up one. He was in great distress. One of the days we were there, Pastor Somsak's wife spoke up to the congregation about his problem, yet didn't voice anything about the sum of money he needed. Through God's voice speaking to the people's heart, the offering collected was enough to cover all the expenses. They were poor people, and I mean really poor, farmers mostly, yet they made it, because it was God's plan, it was His will.

When worship sessions were conducted in the different places I went, it was obvious that the language used was different, yet that made a strong stir in my heart. For like we sing it, one day every knee will bow, every tongue will confess, that You are God, I felt that happening just in front of me. Worshiping in other language to the same God, the feeling you get from it is just indescribable.

At those moments, I felt sorry for that even though I understood all that I sing during worship sessions in church, I sometimes barely practice what I sang.

Worship is not about the words, it's about you, and God, and the good time praising Him with a thankful heart. Doing it without the words, without the understanding of what you're singing could often take us to a higher comprehension of what worship is about.

Praise You Lord, for every worship song that exists throughout the nations, it might sound different, yet, it's the same You, and that's great. One day all knees will bow, all tongues will confess, that You're God. May it be according to what You will. Amen

Love

2010-10-24T06:25:00.001-07:00

If only I could love like You did Lord..........

Sorry......

手足

2010-10-16T12:17:00.000-07:00

手足只的两个字，所以只有两个知
手足只的两个字，感觉点，只有你会知

Haha, have I found that person yet?

To me, it's an accomplishment in life to have one. 10 Things I wanna do before I die? Find one.

A Cry

2010-10-15T12:53:00.000-07:00

While watching movies, I often shed a few drops of tears here and there. The main reason for which I cry in people achieving something great, is the fact that I understood the hardship they went through in order to gain that short instantaneous moment of joy. I myself was once a nobody, criticized, despised, even hated. And all the hardship I went through that brought me to where I stand today, all the acknowledgment I receive, I praise God, and I feel contentment in it.

On the other hand, I also cry when I encounter scenes of which people confessing their love wholeheartedly with indescribably wonderful words. I've longed to hear those words, and feel that love. I know Your love God, but I wanna feel it, like all the time, in every moment of my life. Sent forth Your angels to brighten my days with loving words. As a little word makes a whole lot of difference to me, I give praise to You for everyone in my life who had given me even the slightest feeling of care through their lovely words., blessed be them who speaks of good.

Losing

2010-10-08T11:55:00.000-07:00

Things I've been through recently just tore me in pieces.

Going through all these yet having to put up a smile is just too devastating to be true.

Losing - one of my greatest fears i relationship just came again like a lightning storm, sudden and unwarned.

True enough, the greatest thing on earth is love, yet the same time, the most frustrating thing ever, for there is never certainty.

Handling relationships is simply like baking, no one can be certain of what turns out, and the process is often messy.

Middle men are simply idiots, cause they always get squished like sandwiches.

All I want LORD, is peace LORD. The difficulties, I surrender it into Your Arms. My worldly wisdom and capabilities are just not fit for these things I face LORD, and I need You LORD. Anxiety is pain LORD, anxiety is tragic. All that turns out, I give praise LORD. Just lead me to the Cross. Amen

Nostalgia

2010-10-06T01:55:00.000-07:00

Thinking back of my high school days, I really don't remember doing anything in school that was out of boundaries. Besides the occasional sleep in class, and being late all the time, I guess I was a pretty decent and attentive student.

With all that academic activities I have, I had practically no time for fun stuff. All the recesses I remember spending them either in the music room practicing, or either at the veranda or library training for public elocution. It was pretty hard to find time to do unproductive stuff like talk with my friends, getting to know them better in a sense. When I am back to class, sometimes I was just too tired, and slept, and other times, simply had to pay attention to the lessons to catch up.

Recalling my last relationship was sad, I was pretty much a jerk back then I guess, I didn't know how to treat her right, and the fact that I knew she cried a lot just made me felt worst. Pretty sorry for everything I've done, and, I wish you all the best for the future.

Please bless her LORD, and her family, that they would have peace and joy and love and strength for each new day. Amen.

Words

2010-09-30T10:57:00.000-07:00

Friendship can always bring about unlimited joy, but at some point, it does also bring frustration and annoyance. For the many times I felt annoyed, I always choose to voice out, of which I would wanna learn how not to. Sometimes things just goes on better without me making a great deal out of it, just SHUT UP, and I believe the storm would be over soon enough.

And, assuming that the way you treat people determines the way people treat you, I think I should really evaluate my speech before saying it out, like thoroughly.

Lord, I am feeling plain uncomfortable, and help me to get out of it please. I don't think I can do this myself. Help me to feel more for the people around me and less for myself, and stir me with the Holy Spirit whenever I would make a bad remark. Thanks Lord, Amen.

LIFE LIFE LIFE

2010-09-22T09:19:00.001-07:00

Well, life has been great for the couple of days, and all the outings are completely sparkling the dreadful HELP college life. However, as life goes by, it starts to seem a little lonely.

I know I am well famous for not being moved with the relationship crap, yet, I kinda feel that it's the time to really start trying to bond with someone, and hoping for all that I can get. I don't wanna sound desperate or anything, yet, considering the fact that I am well 21, it kinda triggered the thought of having someone, and the fact that I am moving in the land of the kangaroos next year, stirred the compulsion that I really could use a helping hand to take care of me when I fall.

Not that it's a sign to start hunting like a wolf or being insane about everything that comes across sight, yet, I think I should really consider being more vigilant of the upcoming acquaintances and check out whether if Ms. Right is hidden in the cluster.

Although I admit that there are still lots to worry about, and the overwhelming preparation would in all ways turn me off, I really do need to rely on You LORD to give me a direction and affirmation that I could do just fine.

AMEN.

Friends

2010-09-07T08:38:00.001-07:00

People should start teaching me the definition of friends, for I've long forgotten it's meaning. Redefining it might help me find some balance in life, I hope.

Unagreeableness

2010-09-06T13:01:00.001-07:00

Sometimes, I feel very sorry for being unagreeable, but like a deep rooted trait, it takes a long long time to remove.

I notice that when I get unhappy or so-called "emo" for whatsoever reason, I kinda explicit this characteristic of mine very often. I guess it's pretty much why I perceive myself as a jerk.

Since high school, this trait kinda got me into trouble all the time. I just don't agree on many things people claim, sometimes because of different perception, and other times because I just felt like annoying the shit out of them. I don't like to say "yes" and give in, unless it's too insignificant, or the fact that I do really agree.

While contemplating the cause of it, I kinda got confuse whether it was debate that made me the way I am, or was it the way I am that got me into debate. No matter what the answer might be, I think I should really try being neutral at things sometimes.

Sorry to those I have offended because of my unagreeableness, and for the many times I was in a bad mood and felt just so much like "punching someone in the face" by reacting annoyingly to everything you guys say about anything, I am sooooooo sorry.

Change me LORD, help me to be a more optimistic and cheerful guy, teach me to be humble and thankful towards the friends I have, and help me be more neutral or agreeable towards things they say or convey. Thank You LORD. Amen

Our God is An Awesome God

2010-08-31T12:32:00.000-07:00

Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.
[Matthew 4:4]

It is seemingly so true these days through all the blessings that came from Him. Last Sunday, when Pastor Sandy elaborated on the topic of Rejection. There was this particular thing she said, of which I sincerely see no flaw in.

She said, " We need to learn to forgive, to handle rejection, because as God's people, we will succeed in life through His will and power, and this often brings forth prejudices and despise of the world."

How true is that in our lives, dear brothers and sisters in Christ?

As we walk along the journey of life, have we not realize that many times, we are blessed with the riches of life without even having to plea and beg? The many coincidences that are in favor of our well-being happens too often to be taken as mere luck.

The second message that stroke my heart, was the idea of "our perception determines our reality".

How sweet and pleasing to the ears to hear from God.

I have always had issues with perceiving myself as the ideal person I want to be, and thus have many times failed due to the internal denial that I could be a better person.

Past rejections of my life has always made my days like a living hell, and words people say in the past tore my heart apart so widely it could hardly be healed. Yet, as Pastor Sandy said, the soul will feel the pain, yet the spirit can choose to forgive and cleanse us clean from grudge just by asking Him.

God, maybe I am far from being perfect, but I know everytime I stand before You, I am made complete, complete with Your sovereignty, completed by Your love and embrace.

The heart of worship came back to me in abundance lately, thank You Lord, for giving me all that I have now and I am grateful for all that is to come ahead, cause I know through the hard times, I could take refuge, and that through the happy moments, I have You to thank. Amen.

Differences

2010-08-22T09:24:00.000-07:00

Hanging out with different group of friends often bring forth different feelings and emotions.
I kinda feel a little awkward in the group I was once very attached with, due to the changes in me and the perception of humor that kinda differed.

Getting accustom to a new tradition and culture takes time, how long would it take for me to adapt to the change that is coming ahead?

The way things were a few months back and now has also greatly varied..... And, most of the time, I am reluctant to believe those changes ever happened, and silently wishing that everything would return to normal.

God, take us further, give us the sensitivity to feel what others have in mind, and help us to think from their perspective. Help us to forgive and to silently wait upon Your directions in all relationships we partake in. Let our past fade with time, our present with no regrets, and future with hope. In Jesus Name, AMEN.

My Change

2010-08-18T10:10:00.000-07:00

Routine
Lately I found out that I am so not into a routine lifestyle. I like everything to be unpredictable, especially the adrenaline rush that comes forth in the midst of dealing with the unforeseen circumstances.

Love
I kinda have a different perspective of this term since who knows when. From the time I was dreaming to meet the perfect one, to have the perfect kiss, the perfect night, the perfect life together, until now that I crave companionship, a shoulder to lean upon, and someone to depend on when I tumble and break.

Friendship
Once upon a time, I remembered I had no close friends, even to the point that I believed it was non-existence. Although I might not have a heap of them now, but more than enough for me to feel contented. Simple things you all say can go so deep to touch my heart, but the downside? critics could also stab my heart like the prowess assassin ever. Pros outweighs the cons thou, since I know in every critic lies a room for improvement and enrichment!

Trivia words that touched my heart:
Nxxxx: Text when you're back!
Cxxx: Call me if you need a ride home, I am perfectly fine with it. (2.00 am)

Strength
Trying to depend on God more. FAITH man!

Reminiscence

2010-08-15T22:30:00.000-07:00

Trying hard not to think too much.

I am such an idiot sometimes. My mind is so often bombarded with unhappy circumstances purely created in my imaginary world.

Going to Queensland in like 6 months kinda gives me no time to slack around doing nothing. I feel like being with the bunch of dearly friends I have for as long as I could, even until the point I feel more homely being with them than elsewhere.

"it doesn't matter what you do, but who you do it with"

This is seemingly so true these days.

There are often conflicts and problems that bloated out of a sudden, of which many of times caused difficult feelings or even onerous worries, I enjoyed the entire process. Not that I like it, but the fact that I know that these are parts and parcels that constructs our memory together.

May all the good be with us LORD, help us through the difficulties we face, and teach us the art of friendship in an even more in-dept manner. In Jesus' Precious Name, AMEN.

Regrets

2010-07-28T12:42:00.000-07:00

At this moment of life, I am feeling super regretful of the decisions I've made.

Stupid, persistent ones to make my life more miserable than it already is.

Thank goodness I am leaving Malaysia soon, I need a break from all these nonsense, I need a new fresh life to explore, and not to be told what I should or should not do, what I am and what I am not, what I am suppose to be and what I am not suppose to be.

Seriously, peace OFF!

The only thing I am concern about is in what light God sees me, anyone else, please try to refrain from judging or assuming me on irrelevant matters. If it's necessary for the good of the majority, spit it out, other wise, just kindly STOP. I have more issues to be concern about than being bothered my whole entire time about what you think.

And the fact that I can hardly control myself from not taking it personally, please just don't say what a normal nice guy wouldn't say and we might just be friends.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH

Testimony

2010-07-26T09:41:00.000-07:00

To me, testimonies are wonderful, they are just a piece of master art.
Like seriously, how can you not like hearing one's experience with God?

Thanks to my friend Mr. Chiun, I watched a youtubed testimony of Pastor Jaeson Ma, and it was awesome. I cried like a baby, cause I knew that perseverance and faith would lead you to the eternal treasures God has promised.

Despite Your past, God loves You.

There was one verse I took down,
Nothing you do can make God love you more, yet nothing you do not do will make God love you less.

That's love man. That's love.

And that's all that you need.

Lost

2010-07-13T12:19:00.000-07:00

I don't know since when and why I started feeling this.....
I don't know when I could get over it........
I don't know who caused it.......
But I know, I am not joyous now, neither sad thou.

The only time I can find complete contentment is when I am with You, when I worship You....
During this time, I feel wanted, I feel tightly held, I do not feel like I need to keep striving for approval, keep striving towards the seemingly unachievable worldly standards.

You made me who I am Lord, and You know what's best for me.
And from experience, I know much patience and endurance is required....
Lead me Lord, far from the old me, I desperately need a change, and more importantly I need You.

I am afraid Lord, I am..... Just worried that someday I would not have the strength to carry on.
Every step I take Lord, I pray it would take me closer to You.
I pray that all that struggle I am going through right now Lord, would lead me to the cross, to the eternal treasures You've promised.
And from experience once again, I have faith that it is true.

Please try to go a little easier on me, I am feeling fragile, and I know I would break, anytime....
Send me angels Lord, angels that understands me inside out, who speak faith and courage into my soul, who would willingly be my sword, and my shield, and everything I need to fight the battle... Angels who would lift me and prevent me from falling from the cliff of life.

All this I ask in Jesus Name, Amen.

Mysteries

2010-06-13T08:52:00.000-07:00

Looking back at the past few weeks of my life, all I could see was problems one after the other. Many of times, they are well forgotten on purpose- the so called escape plan, and the rare occasions where they aren't, simply destroys the accustomed routine of our lives.

While most of the problems are claimed to be triggered through the series of events happening with unpredictably fast pace, some are rather internally created, either intended or not.

21 years living on this planet has given me more than my intelligence could comprehend. While being involved in much relationships, I didn't seem to have a slight pinch of understanding about the underlying mechanics. At the same time of often being the consultant, I myself need answers, of which I didn't know where to seek from.

Many might think I am experiencing a hard time with sweat and tears, but I can sincerely assure you that it is not the case. Instead of terming it difficult moments, I would rather quote the simple word confusion. I am pretty confused, not by what I am seeing, or feeling, but rather the way people react to the things they are seeing and feeling. At one point I thought I knew what was the norm or regular course of action, but now, it rather felt like I've been confused all these while.

Not that I am liking it, but it seemed that an interesting picture lies ahead. I guess I would need to just wait for the doors to be unlocked one by one, and see for myself, if the ending will be as good as expected.

Dear Father Lord

2010-05-17T09:58:00.000-07:00

I forgot how long it was since I once wrote in this blog, it felt like forever.

Father LORD, I surrender my life once again to you Lord. I know I have been an unworthy Christian all this while, and am ready to accept changes. I know that it would not be instantaneous, but rather a progressive journey.

You have never failed me LORD, but I on the other hand have been always falling away. Oh Jesus, what could I do to change my past? What could I do to erase the pain and suffering and the sinful lust of my youth which entraps me in misery all these while?

Have I been so ignorant all these while that I forgotten the simplest message of which there is nothing I could do, that all I needed was His grace and mercy, and falling into His arms once again makes me even clearer that nothing could replace Him, nothing at all.

God is good, You are good Father Jesus, and I know you would never put us through obstacles we couldn't bare. While criticism of Christianity never ends, It made me even stronger, for I know the many wonders You've done in my life, I know it's not delusion, and it's never even comparable to an imaginary friend. You are real LORD, from the assurance of Your voice, from the promises that never fails, I believe LORD.

I know LORD that You've given me more than enough to clear my doubts, but many times, temptation I fall into. I am willing LORD, strike me with your Holy Spirit, change me from within. Provide me my daily schedules and help me be persistent, for my one and only prayer that would always remain, is for my faith to grow everlastingly, and that one day, I would proudly carry the name of a Believer of Jesus Christ.

Amen.

Renewed

2010-03-10T10:08:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps, few weeks back I couldn't really comprehend the time I spend alone at home, feeling like I've somehow left something behind. Now that I've made things clear, I would gladly announce that I am refreshed!!

Going through the ups and downs of life, I somehow learn that despite liking it or not, you've gotta live the present. God gave us this "present", and we do not reject gifts right ? :-D

From the road trip to Penang weeks back, I was unintentionally attracted to Taylor Swift's music, thanks to Arnold for bringing the CD along...

To-Do list for the Week:
1) Manually Sign up my subjects and visiting the bursary.
2) Study hard for next Monday's theory exam
3) Cook for my beloved Ex-Games Committee Mates
4) Enjoy myself!!

Thanks LORD for the joy I am experiencing, Amen.

Frustration

2010-02-24T09:27:00.000-08:00

I am so lost, I don't feel like going to college for those boring lectures, sick of facing the idiotic studying environment in HELP, and most of all, tired of getting up from bed at 6 am.

What kind of a crazy timetable is that, I mean seriously, I thought I was old enough to get my sleep until 8, but I guess I have got to continue the routine of 6ish for some trashy management classes.

First week of the new semester is down without even attending, I was just too *busy* to even bother.It however kills me to even think I need to go there the first day after my mission trip to Sibu. Come on, the small guy here needs his rest.

I am doubting my capability of sitting put in the classrooms with no friends to babble to. The typical way of getting over it is to either sleep with my eyes open, or perhaps stern focus on the lecture, whichever easier (obviously the first.......duh~)

This tragedy lasts through the year....get me? through the year........ Why on earth does anyone chooses business besides the job security it claims to provide, nothing.....NOTHING

Argh, I feel awful complaining about all this ***t, but I couldn't help but explode all my anger here in the replacement of flaring my "so called" classmates' faces off with my I-don't-give-a-shit look.....

Peace be with me.....Give me the patience o LORD, need you so much to take my life much easier....

O dang, not forgetting the music classes that comes in package with the assignments and exams......PUH-LEASE help me.....

Agony (Maybe not that severe LOL)

2010-02-04T09:30:00.000-08:00

Once again going through the vicious cycle of sin thrills every inch of my soul, tearing me apart unconsciously. I was worried, that literally one day, I would be of the world, the world of which wrong seems right.

Longing just to see or even feel You has been difficult LORD, at this point of my life, it's no longer a matter of clinging unto Your promises to forgive as we repent, but I need You to hug me tight with all Your might, to comfort the lost compassion and faith that faded into dust through time and temptations.

Life has been dull without Your presence and Your guidance.

Whenever I was in need of worldly things, I always say that I would give up everything but You.

At this very moment I wrote these words, I realize one very important fact, that in us are the temples of which Your spirit resides, and therefore we shouldn't do anything that would defile Your name by exploiting our own bodies.

I pray for everyone out there who are facing difficult moments of their life during the close chinese new year season that we would cling on to our faith, realizing that no matter what, You LORD would calm our hearts as we seek You day by day.

Amen.

Give Thanks

2010-01-05T09:13:00.001-08:00

It's been a long time since I last posted anything, maybe because I just didn't gather enough emotion as motivation.

There are plenty of trash that are hidden in my heart, things that words can't convey, and I often am timid enough to keep it strictly to myself while squeezing into other people's business to drive myself away from my own problems, or just perhaps temporarily divert my focus.

It is common that many things had happened since the last post, I mean in all aspects, but I sincerely am only concern about one great thing, which is to Give Thanks to the Lord for all that he has done and brought me through.

I blame myself Lord, many times, for failing to obey Your commandments and even the simplest things You've intended me to or not to do, despite how strongly Your Spirit was calling out to me.

Forgive me O Lord, Forgive me.

I wasn't an obedient child Lord, but I know Lord, that I want You more than anything.

The devil tempts me to do many unforgivably wrong doings, and I stupidly followed, thinking it was only human nature, what everybody does.

I was foolish Lord, for we are not Everybody, we are Somebody whom are chosen by You to accomplish Your will, to serve and not to be served.

In the days to come, I pray Lord that it will be more and more of You and less of me. All my days and all my years, teach me how to become a faithful servant of Yours, who patiently labors for the harvest, to see that one day Your Name would be glorified in all nations, and that all will kneel and worship You O Lord.

I pray that people around me, my friends would be greatly blessed by Your grace, and You would enable the seeds to be sowed at the perfect timing of Yours Lord, and that all would be reunited in heaven.

I Give Thanks Lord, for You have sent Your only beloved son Jesus to die on the cross for us, so that we can be forgiven for our sins.

"My heart and my strength, many times they fail;
but there is one truth, that always will prevail;
God is the strength of my heart."

I thank You Lord, for smiling at me, at times that I feel like a complete jerk, a sinner not worthy of You. I give You praise.

Rain down on me, wash me over from what's born within I cannot unbind, and cast away the evil spirit that dwells within me to commit the sins of the world.

All I need is You.....Lord....

Elevate Youth Camp 2009

2009-12-13T23:42:00.000-08:00

"Awesome" is the only word I could think of to describe the splendid Elevate Youth Camp, and I certainly still couldn't get enough of it.

The presence of God was so strong and the worship time was just lovely.

The people there were fun to talk to, and fellowship time was incomparable.

The message from Evangelist Carl Butler overwhelming and revealing.

I seriously would like to give praise and thank God for pouring His anointing and filling us with the Holy Spirit and thank God for the people around us in camp, whom we could fearlessly share our pain and sorrow.

Last but not least, I would also thank God for the games committee, namely Arnold, Jia Chek, Jia Chiun, Naomi, John M., for the games would not be even close to success without their assistance. Although sleeping at 3ish every day was certainly hectic and stressful, but I enjoyed being with you guys and getting to know you all better.

I certainly believe God would lead us through a journey of life we would never forget, and I trust in Him to bring us to greater heights and greater depths as long as we continue a long lasting intimate love relationship with Him. Help us LORD to persist our love with You, and to be faithful at all times. In Jesus Name, AMEN!!

Blah Blah~

2009-12-07T09:54:00.000-08:00

Reminder: This is Going to be Yet Another Emo Post

The very minutes of this night I seriously feel pretty confused, trying very hard to hold on to the most optimistic view point I could possibly draw. The stress is making me so uncomfortable and eventually tearing me apart bit by bit.

The very dreams I had throughout live seems to vanish into dust, and confidence I once had about everything failed to strengthen my feet to keep me going. All these days, I often take breaks and spend intimate time with movies, for I believe it can be very educational and revealing.

Camp is here in like 1 day, and I totally lost myself, not a good start I guess. I just sincerely pray for God to pull me back up, and quench my thirst for the answers I am waiting.

Awesome Almighty God

2009-11-26T07:11:00.000-08:00

Just went through three tiring days facilitating games at the prestigious VBS Camp. Honestly, the camp was splendid. It provided me time to bond with some fellow church mates namely Yee Shern, Jarrel, Alicia, Arthur, Jason, David, Sofia, Jin Yin, Melody, Wykit, Mei Li, Nicole, Noel etc., to learn drums (for around an hour?) from Jarrel my very helpful games partner, and most importantly to praise God and reconcile with Him.

To be truthful, my prayer time greatly reduced due to devilish temptations all around. The main power supply to push me back up came from the worships, and of course Jesus who directed the songs to play a role in my heart. Aunt Liling's message also somehow seemed to speak to the deepest part of my heart.

The 2 worship songs I loved was Because and All Things. Since the lyrics are all very catchy, I would post them here LOL!

Because

Because He gave His life
Because He bled and died
Because He rose again, I come

And I admit to God I am a sinner
And I repent and turn away from all my sin
I believe that Jesus is the son of God
And that He came into the world to save us all
And I confess my faith in Jesus as my Savior and my Lord
And I do this because of His great love

Because He loves me so
Because He makes me whole
Because He is my friend, I come

(chorus)

For the wages of sin is death
But the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ

(chorus)

So will you admit to God you are a sinner
And will you repent and turn away from all your sin
Will you believe that Jesus is the son of God
And that He came into the world to save us all
you confess your faith in Jesus as your Savior and your Lord
Will you do this, will you do this, will you do this
because of His great love

All Things

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
I will do my best to do what God says
I will obey everyday and trust Him to take care of me
in all things

Jesus helps me to do what I never thought I could
He shows me how all things work together for my good
So I will follow God's perfect plan for me
I will not be afraid of the future because I believe

In all things I will trust Him
In all things I will love Him
In all things I will praise Him
In all things I will obey Him

Random Update

2009-10-31T10:51:00.000-07:00

Well, it's been awhile since I've updated to my almost dying blog. Hmm, I seriously have no idea or intention to post anything important or sort, that's why it's called a random update.

Lately, nothing seems to be cool, I just have the feeling that people aren't being that nice, maybe it's just me, but I really hope I could discover the underlying reason.......Not that I give a shit, but well, it's still good to understand why they are acting different.

To be frank, I am having finals in like 2 weeks from now, a guest m.c. invitation which would need some practice, youth camp games preparation, CKC camp games preparation, piano classes and more..... A peak time in my year I would say, and I still don't feel like doing anything...LOL

Honestly, motivation is fading away, I lack the strength to move on, it's just like I wanna throw all things aside and travel to somewhere sweet. I don't know why this is coming up, but yea, it's there in the deepest part of my heart.

And about the piano lesson thingy, a major reason why I retook the course was because of a Korean drama, no joke, I am always doing things out of fresh sparks. Well, the drama is called Beethoven Virus, and I love the series, it reminded me of how important the performance stage is in my life, it's like my all, I am used to be with it, and would want to continue living on it.

Since I left high school, life has just been common, I mean ordinary, and I just despise living ordinarily. I like a life with lots and lots of ups and downs, it's just me I guess. Some of my friends who share the same feeling would understand how this boring HELP is dragging us into a pit of ignorance, or maybe just because we allowed it to.

Ending this blog with a prayer as usual, "Father LORD, help me to find the suitable stage I could perform, help me to perform for You. In Jesus Name, AMEN."

Before I forget, I would like to share the Drama's OST as well.

Reticence

2009-10-04T10:50:00.000-07:00

Without faith, it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

[Hebrews 11:6]

If anyone ever pondered why I wasn't updating my supposedly frequently updated blog, the only reason I would claim is the lack of posting materials due to the thoroughly ordinary days that flew by.

Personally I was pretty quiet throughout the week, and it seriously didn't require extreme inspection skills to realize that a pretty huge number of people around me are facing quite some problems in their lives.

My recently developed characteristics somehow served as a beautifully constructed barrier that prevented me from stepping into other people's business unless they are somewhat concerning me or someone close to me.

Deep down heart, I always had a strong on-going struggle.

Regardless of how much I desire people to care for me, I am somewhat terrible at visualizing this desire through expression. Whenever being tossed a "Are you ok?" question, my response is so very programed in a sense with the default answer "yes", yet sometimes without really meaning it. What's worst is that if that someone who cared for me kept pestering with the same message over and over, I often get so pissed off that I put them down with terrible words that busted out of my mouth without understanding its appropriateness or whatsoever.

On the other hand, contradicting to my robust feeling to reach out to people I care or love, I am always pretending that it doesn't mean a damn thing to me. The curiosity of my heart concerning his/her well-being might be driving me crazy, but on my appearance, it might just be a random stare or even just a simply meaningless smile.

I know I know......but.....it is just so hard to tear this veil down.

Sometimes I put blame to the fact that I am the only child, I am used to solving problems despite it's difficulty or miserableness to the extend that even if I breakdown lost and unseen, I am unwilling to dial for HELP. Maybe that's why I end up in HELP university I guess, LOL (pure lame joke xD)

In conclusion however, I would like to give praise to God for that I knew Him as my personal LORD and savior and seeking Him first would definitely be my one and only solution when it comes to torturing dilemma. In addition, I would like to thank Him as well for showing me that there are people outside there who are facing unsociable problem I am having and I pray that one day we will both find a solution to rip that envelop we hide ourselves in. I have faith, that the day will come. AMEN.

HELP Christian Fellowship Camp

2009-09-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

Honestly speaking, my emotions fluctuated up and down a lot during this camp, but the mask hindered the emotional break-down times well, and fortunately no one actually realized. However, overall, it's an awesome camp for it was a time for me to calm my heart and seek the direction instructed by Him.

The companion of emptiness is a fearful one. Sometimes, we really question His ways.

I've never wondered whether God's direction was the best, but at intervals, I do doubt whether they are best for me.

I somehow got His answer regarding this uncertainty.

As humans, I am pretty sure we sometimes don't even know what we want, and which path is appropriate for us. However, there is good news.

God knows us, His understanding of us is beyond what you imagine, He knows us more than we know ourselves and therefore He chooses the best possible out of us. If we decide to ignore His calling and refuse to live according to His ways, we might obtain something we desire presently but spend the rest of our lives regretting having it.

It is a difficult choice to make and maybe unreasonable in human perspective, and I myself fail to listen many times, but I am sure, God is good all the time, and He awaits for us to come back to Him.

I therefore would like to thank God for every situations I'm put through, and apologize that I might still need His patience for sometime, to enable me to once again put that armor on. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Feelings of A Non-Business Material Student Before Exam

2009-09-14T08:59:00.000-07:00

I just wanna sing....
It's hard for I have like 18 hours to my exam and I haven't done studying........

With no desires to progress.....

Pride

2009-09-04T00:17:00.000-07:00

Seriously, when I think back of the incidences I've been through, I thank God for forgiving me, I was unworthy, foolish......

Sometimes as we progress in the Christian Walk, we tend to forget the fundamental basis of being Christians. Today, I got awakened by John of the word HUMBLE.

God is always faithful, He gently awaits us to have this intimate love relationship with Him.

Sometime ago, I was questioning about my experience and walk with God, for that somethings haven't been happening for awhile. It's like it vanished all of a sudden, and again it comes back to this word HUMBLE.

John quoted that many worship leaders who initially served God strayed away because of pride. It's when you're in front, that you tend to forget what brought you there.

At the beginning, we all prayed for humility, we prayed for joy, for love, for Godly wisdom. But sooner or later when we experienced God and truly believed in Him, we did not move on the way He intended. On the contrary, we kept asking for more, we desire more good, and we seek recognition.

God takes initiative to have a relationship with us, He wants to achieve His plans through us. We are not the ones to demand, but to listen, to adjust our lives to live in line with His footsteps.

Today in CF, while we worshiped, I saw an endless road in a dry land, with no dividers. My understanding tells me that, God wanted to show me that the Christian path is long, and it is harsh, with no turn-backs, but the far land in front would be promising.

*It looks something like this*

Father Lord, I repent for pride while I serve You, I repent for not being REAL enough towards You. Guide me with the Holy Spirit, feel me with hunger for Your Words, make me HUMBLE at all cost, and never allow me to stray from You. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Purpose

2009-09-02T11:46:00.000-07:00

As you all know, I participated in 30 Hour Famine awhile ago. For me, it's a wonderful experience and I really thank God for giving me wonderful group mates which comprises of 7 fellas from SMK Seafield, Jenny from Help Psychology, Jennifer (Jenny's sister), and Angeline. It was awesome to see some familiar church faces, like Jin Yin, Wyman, Melody, Arnold and of course the inviter John.

The games are pretty meaningful and seriously through it I know I was molded for a purpose. For those who didn't come, too bad, but you can share the joy by looking at this team as they finished their huts they were suppose to live in.

Cool aint it? It's purely made of card boxes, newspaper, and strings. NO JOKES!

For an insight of what I felt, It was never easy being a group leader. The main issue that bothered me was that despite sleeping 2 hours the previous day and all that hunger, I've got to show enthusiasm and appear participative. I would like to say thank you to my group mates for they never blamed me and attended to my lame jokes and sort.

Day time activities were energy consuming but then it all soothes down at night.

See, what I meant by soothing~ LOL~

In the next morning, we were leaving for the concert at Bukit Jalil. In my opinion, it is pretty much chinese dominated, and due to the fact that I am leading an english group, it seemed gloomy. Everyone was tired and hungry, and all I hoped for is that time pass by soon enough that I would not die starving. Seriously, even Ah Mei didn't get me excited. =.=

Deep down my heart, I realize how uncontented we are. The situation out there is getting pretty bad, food crisis is pwndering the whole world and yet some brainless freaks are still worsening the situation with the FUCKIN biofuel development. I know people would think that I am crazy for being mad, but I just can't tolerate a child's laughter being slaughtered by advancement of technology. I would rather have a deserted world filled with happy people.

People out there need help, and you and I can make a difference!! Use our intellectual skills for the correct purpose and shine for God, live to serve as He died serving US!

These children need our help, they deserve the rights to live just as our blessed offsprings. Give them the happiness they need, for even by looking at the smiles of the children triggers tears, for I know it takes more than you imagine to put it on.

Day 40

2009-08-30T03:32:00.001-07:00

Theme: Celebrating our Independence and Praying for the Future of the Nation

Scriptures:

[Numbers 6:25]

the LORD make his face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;

[Isaiah 62:1-4]

For Zion's sake I will not keep silent,
for Jerusalem's sake I will not remain quiet,
till her righteousness shies out like the dawn,
her salvation like a blazing torch.
The nations will see your righteousness,
and all kings your glory;
you will be called by a new name
that the mouth of the LORD will bestow.
You will be a crown of splendor in the LORD's hand,
a royal diadem in the hand of your God.
No longer will they call you Deserted,
or name your land Desolate.
But you will be called Hephzibah,
and your land Beulah;
for the LORD will take delight in you,
and your land will be married.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Praise God for 52 years of independence, peace and harmony. May God's favour be continually upon us that we will continue to dwell in peace and safety

2. Pray that the future of this nation will be built upon justice, righteousness, fairness and integrity. O Lord, make the Church a blessing to this nation!

3. Uphold the national prayer rally tonight at FGA KL, for the speaker and God's presence to be manifested

Personals:

O man, I can't believe it's the last day of the 40 days of prayer for our nation. And tomorrow will be our Merdeka Day! I don't really fancy such celebration and had never been part of the events and activities, but I do acknowledge the fact that we've been an integrated nation for 52 years already and pray to God for His blessing to be poured out on this land that we would continue to enjoy peace and harmony. I pray that the future of this nation would be a glorious one, one that we would be proud with, and manifestation of the Holy Spirit will continue to take place, and more souls be saved and healed. Let there be passion in the people's heart LORD, and we love, we could conquer all darkness and evil. In Jesus Name' AMEN!

Day 39

2009-08-29T05:58:00.000-07:00

Theme: All Christian as Watchmen

Scriptures:

[Isaiah 62:6-7]

I have posted watchmen on your walls, O Jerusalem;
they will never be silent day or night.
You who call on the LORD,
give yourselves no rest,
and give him no rest till he establishes Jerusalem
and makes her the praise of the earth.

[Amos 9:13]

"The days are coming," declares the LORD,
"when the reaper will be overtaken by the plowman
and the planter by the one treading grapes.
New wine will drip from the mountains
and flow from all the hills.

Prayer Subjects:

1. All Christians to be awakened and take up the roles as watchmen over the nation

2. Plead for a spirit of intercession and supplication to come upon every believer to pray for the revival of this nation

3.God to raise up labourers, sowers and reapers for the coming wave of revival and national harvest

Personals:

"The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few" [Luke 10:2], as Christians we have got to equip ourselves well for the return of Jesus Christ our LORD and savior. We must ensure that we ourselves as citizens of Malaysia would play a role to safeguard the country God granted us with. So come on people, let's pray hard. In Jesus Name' AMEN.

Day 37

2009-08-26T21:22:00.001-07:00

Theme: Government to Preserve the Nation as a Secular State

Scripture:

[Psalms 2:8]

Ask of me,
and I will make the nations your inheritance,
the ends of the earth your possession.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Government will give itself totally over to the service and benefit of the Rakyat (citizen) and aspire to bring progress for all as its all surpassing mission

2. Our fundamental rights and liberties as a pluralist-civil society may remain in place

3. Extremist elements will not change and transform this nation as a secular state

(*A pluralist is basically someone who oppose a definite interpretation , and a secular state simply means that we are neutral in matters of religion.)

Personals:

O Father LORD, I pray that the government of our nation would consider the well-being of the people above anything else, especially their pockets. I want to thank you LORD for the freedom we have to worship You, our one and only Abba, and pray that no one would ever deprive us from this right. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Day 36

2009-08-26T01:00:00.000-07:00

Theme: A Just and Effective Education System

Scripture:

[Proverbs 22:6]

Train a child in the way he should go,
and when he is old he will not turn from it.

Prayer Subjects:

1. For truth and excellence to be restored to our education system that all learning curriculum and syllabus shall be wholesome and educational

2. Against unhealthy elements and unjust policies in our education institution that divide the races and sow seeds of discord, hatred, suspicion and distrust among our students

3. Greater racial unity to be fostered among the students, educators, and administrators in these educational institutions

4. God to raise up Christians to enter the education field and infuse it with godly, fair and righteous values

Personals:

Growing-up in Independent Chinese Medium School, I face less conflict with races, cause there are only a handful of Malays, and Indians in our school. Personally however, I love mixing up with people from different race, as long as they are nice. I quote people for who they are, and not what color their skin is. Nevertheless, I still want to pray for racial issues in our nation would submerse into a black hole, and that it never rise again. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Day 35

2009-08-25T06:29:00.000-07:00

Theme: Care for Extended Family

Scriptures:

[Deuteronomy 5:16]

"Honor your father and your mother, as the LORD your God has commanded you, so that you may live long and that it may go well with you in the land the LORD your God is giving you."

[1 Timothy 5:3-4]

Give proper recognition to those widows who are really in need. But if a widow has children or grandchildren, these should learn first of all to put their religion into practice by caring for their own family and so repaying their parents and grandparents, for this is pleasing to God.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Ask for forgiveness if we have not honoured and loved our elderly parents or relatives

2.For God's love to touch the many who are aged and are living without care from their loved ones

3.For all Christian families who care for the elderly and aged that they will model and showcase a loving, caring and compassionate community

4. More Christian homes to care for the elderly and sick to be established

Personals:

Deep down my heart I seriously acknowledge that my compassion and love for my relatives and grandparents just don't exist. I repent, LORD for the lack of love instilled in me. Father LORD, blessed those who are abandoned intentionally or unintentionally by their loved ones, and may the Christian families around lend a hand in rebuilding their broken hearts. I pray LORD, that your people will establish homes to cater for the elderly and sick and that Your blessing be upon them. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Day 34

2009-08-23T22:46:00.000-07:00

Theme: The Family and Household as the Foundation for a Healthy Nation

Scriptures:

[Genesis 12:3b]

and all people on earth
will be blessed through you.

[Colossians 3:18-21]

Wives, submit to your husbands, as is fitting in the Lord.

Husbands, love your wives and do not be harsh with them.

Children, obey your parent sin everything, for this pleases the Lord.

Fathers, do not embitter your children, our they will become discouraged.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Families to align their lives with godly values and principles and for family altars to be established

2. Christian families to seek to be a positive influence wherever they are - work, play, school or home - thereby being role models to society

3. Raising up Christian families to be a prayer force to change the destiny of families and nation and beyond

4. The Holy spirit to empower parents to be fathers and mothers to their children and for healing and reconciliation between parents and children

Personals:

O Father Lord, I pray that families that are facing hardship in their relationship with each other will be released from the complication and reconcile with each other. I also pray that families will place their basis on the godly values and principles so that it will turn out to be good. Christian families are obliged to act as role models towards the unsaved once in all perspective that we may shine for Him. In Jesus Name' AMEN.

Day 33

2009-08-23T08:36:00.000-07:00

Theme: Christians as Good Moral Citizens

Scriptures:

[Titus 2:6-8]

Similarly, encourage the young men to be self-controlled. IN everything set them an example by doing what is good. In your teaching show integrity, seriousness and soundness of speech that cannot be condemned, so that those who oppose you may be ashamed because they have nothing bad to say about us.

[2 Timothy 2:22]

Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Christians to be vigilant (cautious) and to live exemplary lives in our society community and so let God's light shine through us

2. Authorities may have the wisdom and will to arrest social problems and CLEAN UP SOCIETY from all moral and social decay such as drug/ ecstasy (high) pill addiction/ trafficking, pornography

3. The youth and younger generation will imbibe godly and kingdom values and reject worldly influences of moral and social decay

Personals:

It is obvious that the generations to come are the hope of the future, I just pray that God will instill a compassionate and righteous heart that they may obey Your commands and live examplary lives. In Jesus Name' AMEN.

Day 32

2009-08-21T11:27:00.000-07:00

Theme: Restoring Justice and Equity

Scriptures:

[Psalms 89:14-18]

Righteousness and justice are the foundation of your throne;
love and faithfulness go before you.
Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you,
who walk in the light of your presence, O LORD.
They rejoice in your name all day long;
they exult in your righteousness.
For you are their glory and strength,
and by your favor you exalt our horn.
Indeed, our shield belongs to the LORD,
our king to the Holy One of Israel.

Once you spoke in a vision,
to your faithful people you said:
"I have bestowed strength on a warrior;
I have exalted a young man from among the people."

Prayer Subjects:

1. The Lord's presence to sweep through the land: that the Holy Spirit may really purge this nation of the ills and evils of corruption

2. Against nepotism (favoritism) and cronyism ( to give authority based on relationship but not capabilities), restoring justice, equity and righteousness

3. That the wealth and economic benefits will filter down to all people

Personals:

I decided to come out with this blog earlier than expected for that I will not be able to post this due to my participation in 30 hour famine 4 hours from now! Well, praying for the guidance of the spirit to be with me, to be able to gain awareness for the helpless, restless, and hopeless people out there.

Citizens of Malaysia should acknowledge the fact that we are really fortunate to be blessed, and should be contented. Why would we give way to unrighteousness to kick in while we are capable of living a life of righteousness. Don't wait for the Lord to pour out His wrath on us, for it will be too late.

Day 31

2009-08-21T11:14:00.001-07:00

Theme: Christian Businessmen Upholding Integrity and Righteousness

Scriptures:

[Psalms 37:23-29]

If the LORD delights in a man's way,
he makes his steps firm;
though he stumble, he will not fall,
for the LORD upholds him with his hand.

I was young and now I am old.
yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken
or their children begging bread.
They are always generous and lend freely;
their children will be blessed.

Turn from evil and do good;
then you will dwell in the land forever.
For the LORD loves the just
and will not forsake his faithful ones.

They will be protected forever,
but the offspring of the wicked will be cut off;
the righteous will inherit the land
and dwell in it forever.

[Isaiah 60:5]

Then you will look and be radiant.
your heart will throb and swell with joy;
the wealth on the seas will be brought to you,
to you the riches of the nations will come.

Prayer Subjects:

1. All Christians to renounce and be free from every trace of greed and corruption

2.Christian businessmen to uphold integrity and righteousness in their dealing and to be His salt and light

3.Christian businessmen to be faithful stewards who release their wealth to evangelism and kingdom building-initiatives

Personals:

Bless Your People in this land O LORD, touch their hearts that they would remember who is their guide and deliverer, that they will not sin against you by greed and corruption. Dealings must be of righteousness and parts of earnings should be catered for His kingdom. For it is His will to use You as a labour of harvest, sing praise for His glory. In Jesus Name' Amen

Day 30

2009-08-19T23:29:00.000-07:00

Theme: Enforcement Agencies Against Corruption

Scriptures:

[Proverbs 6:35]

He will not accept any compensation;
he will refuse the bribe, however great it is.

[Psalms 26:11-12]

But I lead a blameless life;
redeem me and be merciful to me.

My feet stand on level ground;
in the great assembly I will praise the LORD.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Continue to expose and to root out every corruption practice in all agencies

2. The enforcement authorities may be truly responsible and carry out their duties without fear or favour

3. Enforcement authorities and citizens may be able to cooperate with each other to stem out corruption and corrupt practices in all sectors of life

Personals:

In this land of ours, corruption surely is a big issue, and the agencies don't seem to be effective enough to serve even as a pain killer. Reason? The essence of it sums up in prayer subject two, they are not responsible, and even if intended, it somehow turns up that favor or fear towards the higher authorities exist. The "SIKAP TAK APA" of the Malaysian citizens contributed to this pile of shit too, as everyone is bribing, why shouldn't I? So, please LAH! Take a stand and do not let bribary pollute the minds of the younger generation, it affects the economy you know? It's a leakage, and I hope everyone out there is bright enough to understand that.

day 29

2009-08-19T00:03:00.001-07:00

Theme: Believers to Engage and participate Against Corruption

Scriptures:

[Philippians 2:12-16]

Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed - not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence - continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.

Do everything without complaining or arguing, sot that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life - in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Believers to be blameless and to hold fast to truth and integrity

2. For more Christians to come forward and be involved in efforts to eradicate corruption and corrupt practices in all sectors of life

3. For Christians who are already involved in this area of work: that the Church may back them up and support their efforts in every way possible

4. That efforts by individuals and organizations to monitor and check on corruption will truly be effective

Personals:

O Father Lord, strengthen Your people in righteousness, that they would never give way to corruption and evil deeds, Christians to involve in the efforts to eradicate corruption issues and practices in our nation and bless those who are already in this sector, and guide them with the Holy Spirit and the backup of the body of Christ. In Jesus Name' Amen.

Day 28

2009-08-18T01:46:00.000-07:00

Theme: Christians in Authority Against Corruption

Scriptures:

[Micah 6:8]

He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.

[Exodus 23:7-8]

Have nothing to do with a false charge and do not put an innocent or honest person to death, for I will not acquit the guilty.
"Do not accept a bribe, for a bribe blinds those who see and twists the words of the righteous.
"Do not oppress an alien; you yourselves know how it feels to be aliens, because you were aliens in Egypt.

Prayer Subjects:

1. That Christians in position of authority, whether as MPs or in the civil service, to be against corruption, living lives and serving in moral righteousness

2. That the Church may have the moral courage to speak out and make known all forms of corruption

Personals:

Christians in position of authority should play a role model towards the others in regards to this matter. Corruption can be seen as a fruit of evil which bears from the sin nature of human. We must cut these roots and set our country righteous, and that couldn't be done without the intervene of God. So pray hard people.

Day 27

2009-08-17T00:25:00.000-07:00

Theme: Moral Righteousness and Ethics to prevail

Scriptures:

[Amos 5:24]

But let justice roll on like a river,
righteousness like a never-failing stream!

Prayer Subjects:

1. That the LORD may convict our national leaders to uphold moral righteousness to be corrupt-free and against all forms of corruption

2. For civil service and civil servants in every government ministry

3. For all citizens of Malaysia: that we will all cherish and value corrupt-free practices and be against all corruption

Personals:

It is time for us to say "NO" to not only SMOKING but also RASUAH. I repent for that once in my life that I give in and paid RM40 under the table, and I swear I would never do that again! (In other news, some truly anti-corruption police are recording the process with their cellphones to ensure that once you offer to bribe, you get caught. ) So, let's not break the law in the first place, and if committed unintentionally, pay the full price for our lessons. LOL

Day 26

2009-08-16T02:57:00.000-07:00

Theme: Church as the Agent of Truth and Light

Scriptures:

[Colossians 1:10-14]

And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light. For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

Prayer Subjects:

1. To repent if we have not upheld truth and righteousness

2. Confess and seek forgiveness for our indifference and failures in not making known corrupt practices of public nature

Personals:

Father Lord, have mercy on us, for we are always tempted to comply with the standards and norms of the world, and lost sights for truth and righteousness. Give us clean hands, and give us pure hearts Lord. In Jesus Name' Amen.

Day 25

2009-08-15T08:40:00.001-07:00

Theme: Impacting and Transforming Society

Scriptures:

[Isaiah 40:3-5]

A voice of one calling:
"In the desert prepare
the way for the LORD;
make straight in the wilderness
a highway for our God.
Every valley shall be raised up,
every mountain and hill made low;
the rough ground shall become level,
the rugged places a plain.
And the glory of the LORD will be revealed,
and all mankind together will see it.
For the mouth of the LORD has spoken."

Prayer Subjects:

1. Beseech the LORD for the transformation of lives, beginning in us, overflowing to our society and nation by the power of God

2. Christian participation and involvement will bring impact and real transformation to society and the nation

3. God's grace and favour as well as protection be on the Church as we engage in the affairs of the nation

4. The Churches to be a cutting edge in nation building

Personal:

O Mighty LORD, transform our society and nation, bring new souls to our family as we strive hard towards a better tomorrow, and awaken compassion in the heart of your people for their care for others prevail before any other. Have Your hand over them and guide them as they participate in the public fields and show your strength through solid results. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Day 24

2009-08-14T02:30:00.000-07:00

Theme: Removing Hindrances that Obstruct Transformation

[Isaiah 57:14-15]

And it will be said:

"Build up, build up, prepare the road!
Remove the obstacles out of the way of my people."
For this is what the high and lofty One says-
he who lives forever, whose name is holy:
"I live in a high and holy place,
but also with him who is contrite and lowly in spirit,
to revive the spirit of the lowly
and to revive the heart of the contrite.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Confess and renounce our attitude of maintaining a "status quo" attitude and self-interest

2. Christians to be liberated from the forces of market capitalism and remove idols in our lives

3. Remove every spirit of control, intimidation, manipulation and fear that obstruct change for the welfare of the people

Personals:

Sometimes we just refrain from going out from our own circles and reaching out to those who are in need, and we take our self-interest much highly above everyone else. Idols of our heart must be removed, and one veil is that of capitalism. Create in us a strong and pure heart so that we may strive the distance for you LORD. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Day 23

2009-08-13T04:23:00.000-07:00

Theme: Christians to Take Part in the Public Arena

Scriptures:

[Isaiah 42:1]

"Here is my servant, whom I uphold,
my chosen one in whom I delight;
I will put my Spirit on him
and he will bring justice to the nations.

[Isaiah 42:6-8]

I, the LORD, have called you in righteousness;
I will take hold of your hand.
I will keep you and will make you
to be a covenant for the people
and a light for the Gentiles,
to open eyes that are blind,
to free captives from prison
and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Churches to stand and to challenge their congregation to participate in public concerns

2. The Lord to raise more Christian workers in the public arena and field of work

3. The Lord's wisdom, strength and counsel be on all his servants who are engaged in the public square

4. The Church to be bold and courageous to speak out against the deprivation of rights and any unfair distribution of social goods

Personals:

O Father LORD, lead Your people into righteousness, participate them in public concerns and provide them with the wisdom, strength and counsel they need to work in the public squares. As a body of Christ, let's together say "NO" to injustice and put an end to the deprivation of rights dealt to the poor, oppressed and marginalized. In Jesus' Name I pray, AMEN.

Day 22

2009-08-12T11:06:00.000-07:00

Theme: Interceding for Christian MPs and those Playing a Role in the Public
Square

Scripture:

[Isaiah 11:2-5]

The Spirit of The LORD will rest on him-
the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding,
the Spirit of counsel and of power,
the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD-
and he will delight in the fear of the LORD.

He will not judge by what he sees with his eyes,
or decide by what he hears with his ears;
but with righteousness he will judge the needy,
with justice he will give decisions for the poor of the earth.
He will strike the earth with the rod of his mouth;
with the breath of his lips he will slay the wicked.
Righteousness will be his belt
and faithfulness the sash around his waist.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Christian politicians will be courageous, standing for justice and speaking to defend the poor, oppressed and marginalized.

2.God's protection, humility of service and protection against moral corruption upon all these servants

3. Other Christian workers in NGOs, social service organizations and other organizations, Christian activist and others who are contributing to the welfare of the nation

Personals:
It is commonly heard that sometimes when you're in something, you can't do somethings, and corruption seems to be an unavoidable issue in almost every political field anywhere. However, we are not of the World, we are not to conform to the norms of the World but of Gods' Kingdom. As Christians, we must be the example, the role model. Life is never easy, so don't complain. Father, I just wanna uphold all the Christians that are contributing in the nation's welfare, that they would have a clear mind, free from temptations of the devil, and use the Holy Spirits to guide them in making decision whenever necessary. In Jesus' Name AMEN.

Day 21

2009-08-10T17:53:00.001-07:00

Theme: For a Fair and Righteous Judiciary

Scriptures:

[Proverbs 8:14-16]

Counsel and sound judgment are mine;
I have understanding and power.
By me kings reign
and rulers make laws that are just;
by me princes govern,
and all nobles who rule on earth.

[Leviticus 19:15]

"'Do not pervert justice; do not show partiality to the poor or favoritism to the great, but judge your neighbor fairly.'"

Prayer Subjects:

1. Judges to play their rightful role as arbitrators and dispensers of justice without fear or favour

2. All judicial personnel such as judges, administrative staff, lawyers maybe diligent in exercising their duties

3. That civil law will continue to be the law of the land and that the Rule of Law be upheld and respected.

Personals:

I just pray that God would sow a righteous seed in the hearts of the involved personnel in the judiciary system. That they would not have fear or favor nor laziness in carrying out their duties. In Jesus' Name I pray, AMEN.

Day 20

2009-08-09T23:18:00.000-07:00

Theme: Interceding for Those in Authority

Scriptures:

[1 Timothy 2:1-4]

I urge, then, first of all, that requests, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for everyone-for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness. This is good, and pleases God our Savior, who wants all men to be saved and to come to a knowledge of the truth.

[Proverbs 14:34]

Righteousness exalts a nation,
but a sin is a disgrace to any people.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Bless those whom God has placed in authority over the nation

2. Uphold those in authority, members of the Executive, Judiciary and Parliament: that they may exercise power righteously with accountability

3. Against corruption in the authorities: that there will not be any misuse and abuse of Government funds

Personals:

We might not respect the person, but we must respect his authority. I pray for our prime minister for that he will take good care of our nation and lead us to prosperity and advancement. I pray that everyone in the authority would consider the interests of the people and react accordingly. And, that corruption would come to an end one day soon. Change the heart and mind of these people LORD. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Day 19

2009-08-09T03:07:00.000-07:00

Theme: The Christian in the public Square

Scriptures:

[Esther 4:13-14]

He sent back this answer:" Do not think that because you are in the king's house you alone of all the Jews will escape. For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will parish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?"

Prayer Subjects:

1. Confess if you have kept your faith private and away from public concerns

2. That the Lord may renew your heart and mind for the involvement in the public square

3. Pray for Christians in the public square: for their eyes to be enlightened to the hope and calling in the public square and see the vast opportunity to be the letters of Christ through exemplary lives that are without hypocrisy, are righteous and wise in the dealings and treatment of others, without fear or favour, putting the welfare of others before self ambition or agenda.

Personals:

As Christians, we are not to be ashamed of ourselves, we must be proud. I pray that Christians voice out our faith and reach the public squares, and when involved, live a life of a role model towards the people, God chose you for a purpose, live up to it, and you will be blessed. In Jesus Name, AMEN

Day 18

2009-08-08T07:11:00.000-07:00

Theme: Government's Role for the Migrants

Scriptures:

[Psalms 72:1-4]

Endow the king with your justice, O God,
the royal son with your righteousness.
He will judge your people in righteousness,
your afflicted ones with justice.
The mountains will bring prosperity to the people,
the hills the fruit of righteousness.
He will defend the afflicted among the people
and save the children of the needy;
he will crush the oppressor.

[Psalms 72:12-14]

For he will deliver the needy who cry out,
the afflicted who have no one to help.
He will take pity on the weak and the needy
and save the needy from death.
He will rescue them from oppression and violence,
for precious is their blood in his sight.

[Jeremiah 22:3]

This is what the LORD says: Do what is right. Rescue from the hand of his oppressor the one who has been robbed. Don no wrong or violence to the alien, the fatherless or the widow, and do not shed innocent blood in this place.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Pray that all rampant abuses against the migrants will cease

2. Th government to sincerely take steps to look into the plight and welfare of the migrants

3. Wisdom for the authorities to deal with rising criminal activities among the immigrants

Personals:

As I said yesterday, we are migrants if we leave this place of ours, our home, and if we are to be rampantly abused, will we feel good? So, why do it to them? The government plays an important role to safeguard the interest of the migrants as well, we need hospitality in this land to cater for this group of people. Rising criminal rates are conspicuous, but what are the factors that underlies in the depths? Could it be that they had no choice? In Jesus' Mighty name, I pray for your anointing among the government to care and love these people, and for people to lend out helping hands. AMEN

Day 17

2009-08-07T09:52:00.000-07:00

Theme: Church Helping the Migrant People in Malaysia

Scriptures:

[Proverbs 14:31]

He who oppresses the poor shows contempt for their Maker,
but whoever is kind to the needy honors God.

[Proverbs 19:17]

He who is kind to the poor lends to the LORD,
and he will reward him for what he has done.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Repent if we have exploited the migrant workers

2. Churches may extend practical help and a helping hand by offering a place of solace for their physical/ emotional needs

3. Christian homes to be opened for migrants to experience God's goodness, love and hospitality

4. When the migrants taste Christian hospitality and God's goodness, they will seek after Christ

5. For growth in the life of believers and the migrant fellowship groups

Personals:

I have always had an issue when people have this stereotypical view of migrants, and lay their comments and condemnation. Imagine if we left Malaysia and stood outside the other worlds, will we enjoy those stray eyes starring at you as if you've done something wrong? I pray that as christian we are nourished in love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, that we might learn to appreciate them as one of us, and treat them well as brothers and sisters, and lead them to the truth. After all, we are just human that God created in different areas. IN JESUS' NAME AMEN.

Day 16

2009-08-05T23:55:00.000-07:00

Theme: Strong Church Amongst the Indigenous People of Peninsular Malaysia

Scripture:

[Ephesians 3:16-21]

I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your heart through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

Prayer Subjects:

1. The Lord to raise up godly, strong and righteous leader amongst the indigenous people

2. Leaders to be filled with the fullness of God and to set godly example for the believers in their midst

3. Churches to be rooted in the Word and be strong in discipleship and reaching out to their own people

4. That the spiritual bondage and influence of other religions as well as the restrictions imposed to be broken

Personals:

In Jesus Name, I just pray that the indigenous people would have the fruit of the Spirits through the laying of your hands. Bring up righteous leaders that sets godly examples for their people and strengthen the churches with their discipleship and motivate them to root their lives in the Word and that spiritual bondage will be broken down. In Jesus Name' AMEN.

Day 15~

2009-08-04T15:14:00.000-07:00

Theme: Helping the Indigenous People of Peninsular Malaysia

Scriptures:

[Isaiah 60:21-22]

Then will all your people be righteous
and they will possess the land forever.
They are the shoot I have planted,
the work of my hands,
for the display of my splendor.
The least of you will become a thousand,
the smallest a mighty nation.
I am the LORD;
in its time I will do this swiftly.

Prayer Subjects:

1. The Orang Asli in Malaysia: For their general welfare and well-being as a community of people

2.Pray that injustices and deprivation of rights that these indigenous people go through will cease

3. The government will be sincere and genuine to extend help to the indigenous people without ulterior motives

Personals:

O Father LORD, bless these people who are facing injustices and deprivation of rights. Take down the barriers that prevents us from living in harmony and build a strong heart filled with compassion and love in us, that we might love one another just like our Father loved us. Hidden veils of the government must be brought down and transparency must prevail. Let the indigenous be uphold and praise God for His mercy. In Jesus Name' AMEN.

Day 14

2009-08-04T02:10:00.000-07:00

Theme: Helping the Churches in Smaller Areas and Other Towns

Scriptures:

[Acts 20:35]

In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the work the Lord Jesus himself said: 'It is more blessed to give than to receive.'

[2 Corinthians 9:8-15]

And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will be abound in every good work. As it is written:

"He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor; his righteousness endures forever."

Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for the food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and thorough us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.

This service that you perform is not only supplying the needs of God's people but is also overflowing in many expressions of thanks to God. Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the gospel of Christ, and for generosity in sharing with them and with anyone else. And in their prayers for you their hearts will go out to you, because of the surpassing grace God has given you. Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!

Prayer Subjects:

1. Churches in Peninsular Malaysia to be a blessing and to release their resources to help the churches in Sabah and Sarawak

2. Uphold churches who are facing difficulties, manpower and resources in the East Coast and smaller towns.

3. The smaller churches will work together with churches in Peninsular Ma;aysia for the common goal of loving our neighbours.

Personals:

I pray that churches in the East Coast will be blessed by God and God's wisdom to be with them to overcome any sense of difficulties that occurs. Our youth mission trip will be a trip to Sibu, and I just pray that we would be of a helping hand and it will be an effective and productive outreach. In Jesus Name' AMEN.

Day 13

2009-08-02T23:22:00.000-07:00

Theme: Remembering the needs of the Church in Sabah and Sarawak

Scripture:

[Isaiah 64:1-9]

Oh, that you would rend the heavens and come down,
that the mountains would tremble before you!
As when fire sets twigs ablaze
and causes water to boil,
come down to make your name known to your enemies
and cause the nation to quake before you!
For when you did awesome things that we did not expect,
you came down, and the mountains trembled before you,
Since ancient times no one has heard,
no ear has perceived,
no eye has seen any God besides you,
who acts on behalf of those who wait for him.
You come to the help of those who gladly do right,
who remember your ways.
But when we continued to sin against them,
you were angry,
How then can we be saved?
All of us have become like one who is unclean,
and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags;
we all shrivel up like a leaf,
and like the wind our sins sweep us away.
No one calls on your name
or strives to lay hold of you;
for you have hidden your face from us
and made us waste away because of our sins.

Yet, O LORD, you are our Father.
We are the clay, you are the potter;
we are the work of your hand.
Do not be angry beyond measure, O LORD;
do not remember our sins forever.
Oh, look upon us, we pray,
for we are all your people.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Fire of revival to sweep through Sabah and Sarawak to awaken every church to her role and calling for her state and nation.

2. Manifold wisdom of the Lord to be upon the Heads of churches, pastors, elders and leaders in the churches in Sabah and Sarawak as they deal with their community issues.

3. United prayer movement and vision for national transformation to meet the needs of the community there

4. Church to be fervent in evangelism and outreach to every people

Personals:

It is time for the body of Christ to play their role for the states and nations, and only through God's wisdom it can be done well. So, may the LORD give us wisdom to be strong and to fight for your KINGDOM. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Day 12

2009-08-02T23:08:00.000-07:00

Theme: Concern for States of Sabah and Sarawak

Scripture:

[Isaiah 60:1-2 ]

"Arise, shine, for your light has come,
and the glory of the LORD rises upon you.
See, darkness covers the earth
and thick darkness is over the peoples,
but the LORD rises upon you
and his glory appears over you.

Prayer Subjects:

1. A fair and just government in Sabah and Sarawak; for the Sabah government to take steps to solve the illegal immigrant problem

2. Pray that the State Governments may rule and administer the States well, bringing benefits to the people

3. For a just and fair judiciary who will act to preserve the rights of the indigenous people, their cultural identity and religious heritage

Personals:

I am truthfully very sorry and ask for forgiveness from the LORD and of course the readers, for that I failed to upload this piece of work yesterday, I remembered, but I was just pure lazy and prepared to do it before bed, where my electricity broke down and leads everything to failure.

Well, I am not really familiar with Sabah and Sarawak, so I just generally pray for their welfare, and for God to move them and give them wisdom to solve the problems that bumps in. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Day 11

2009-08-01T06:18:00.000-07:00

Theme: The Church- Evangelizing the Excluded

Scriptures:

[Romans 1:16]

I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes; first for the Jew, then for the Gentile.

[Romans 10:14-15]

How then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written, " How beautiful are the feet of those who brings good news!"

Prayer Subjects:

1. The Lord to be compassionate for the excluded in society such as the prostitutes, drug addicts, single moms, the homeless and neglected, etc.

2. Churches to network together with government agencies to help this group of people

3. Uphold the NGOs such as Malaysian Care or rehabilitation centres that reach out to these people

Personals:

The excluded of the society are quoted "EXCLUDED" solely because of our scorn and neglect. Prostitutes won't be prostitutes if there wasn't an underlying reason. Drug addicts are purely ignorant people who are lead to perish by wrong influences, single moms exist purely because of irresponsible men. We must learn to be compassionate as we pray for the Lord's forgiveness towards these people. The rehabilitation centres throughout Malaysia are doing their best to restructure the broken souls, and requires our support and help. I pray that Lord could show me a way that I would be of help. In Jesus' Name I pray, AMEN.

Day 10

2009-07-31T10:59:00.000-07:00

Theme: The Church- Evangelizing the Poor

Scriptures:

[LUKE 4:18-19]

"The Spirit of the Lord is on me,
because he has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners
and recovery of sight for the blind,
to release the oppressed,
to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor."

Prayer subjects:

1. To open doors of opportunities to witness and proclaim the Gospel to the poor and needy

2. Powerful visitation of the Holy Spirit to break bondages among the excluded and poor

3. Salvation for the excluded and poor

Personals:

As a soldier of the Kingdom of God, we are to equip ourselves well and to reach out to the souls of the poor and needy. Sometimes, I strongly feel the lack of compassion in my heart, I am too blinded with the so-called miseries of my own life that I neglect the fact that I am here to serve people. When the seeds are sowed, it is then the Holy Spirit's job to cast away spiritual blindness and enable them to be lead to the THE WAY. So, PRAY PEOPLE, PRAY!!!
IN JESUS NAME, AMEN.

Day 9

2009-07-29T23:13:00.000-07:00

Theme: The Church- Action for the Poor

Scriptures:

In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. [Matthew 5:16]

[Proverbs 28:27]

He who gives to the poor will lack nothing,
but he who closes his eyes to them receives many curses.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Churches to have effective strategies to reach the poor and for the favour with the authorities to implement them

2.Our home groups/cells may be more accessible to all kinds of broken, hurting, poor and needy people

Personals:
The body of Christ must be motivated to reach those in need and pray hard that legal authorities would be more than willing to give us a helping hand. Community outreach of cells must also be frequent! So when is ours? LOL

Day 8

2009-07-29T06:13:00.000-07:00

Theme: The Lower Income and Menial Workers

Scriptures:

[Psalms 82:3-4]
Defend the cause of th weak and fatherless;
maintain the rights of the poor and oppressed.
Rescue the week and needy;
deliver them from the hand of the wicked.

[Psalms 140:12]
I know tha thte LORD secures justice for the poor
and upholds the cause of the needy.

Prayer Subjects:
1. Against exploitation on the lower income group
2. Churches to have an expanded vision of thier interest and the heart to reach out to these people
3. Churches to make the Gospel relevant to the life of these people
4. Upholding the lower income and menial workers such as hawkers, garbage collectors, etc.

Personals:
Late night whenever I pass by closing pasar malams, I always had a strong sense of unhappiness. I couldn't tolerate the fact that the sellers polute the ground till such extend and waits for the poor sweeper to TAKE CARE of those junks scattered all around. It wasn't to blame if the sweeper is well paid, but it's obviously otherwise. I just pray that Malaysia would treasure these labours and provide better environment for them, and for churches to reach out to touch their hearts and souls.

Day 7

2009-07-28T01:16:00.001-07:00

Theme: The Government to Eradicate Poverty

Scriptures:

[Proverbs 22:22-23]

Do not exploit the poor because they are poor
and do not crush the needy in court,
for the LORD will take up their case
and will plunder those who plunder them.

Prayer Subjects:

1. Against policies that discriminate against the poor

2. National commitment, policies and action to eliminate poverty and address the legitimate needs of the poor

3. For proper education to be given to empower the poor for good and healthy living

4. The business community will exercise its responsibility to provide opportunities for the poor and the less fortunate

Personals:

I just pray to You LORD that the government of Malaysia would be of help to the needy in an unbiased way, and that the policies that discriminates would be demolished. The crucial factor of moving out of poverty usually lies on education and therefore, it is equally important to provide tracks for them to pursue education as a whole. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Day 6

2009-07-27T10:15:00.000-07:00

Theme: Delivering the Poor from Hardship and Poverty

Scripture:

[Matthew 25:31-46]

³¹"When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his throne in heavenly glory. ³²All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. ³³He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.

³⁴"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. ³⁵For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, ³⁶I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

³⁷"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? ³⁸When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? ³⁹When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'

⁴⁰"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

⁴¹"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. ⁴²For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, ⁴³I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'

⁴⁴"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'

⁴⁵"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'

⁴⁶"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."

Prayer Subjects:

1. Confess and repent for our passive and indifferent attitude to the poor and marginalized

2. God to hear the cries of those who are facing hardships and difficulties and bring deliverance to the poor and excluded

3.Christians to be empowered and moved with compassion to reach out to the needy and poor in tangible ways

Personals:

The first prayer subject emphasized the majority of attitude people have towards the poor and marginalized, at least for me. Sincerely, in a place like ours, we are not exposed to networks that show us how could a youth like us be of help? I just need You LORD to lead us, help us to be of healing hand to the the hopeless. IN JESUS' NAME, AMEN.

Hey Peeps Listen Up!

2009-07-26T14:38:00.001-07:00

It's been awhile since I've updated something more personal, and, today at 5.29 a.m. in the morning, I am here to share with you guys a testimony, a BIG one.

Because of the pimple issues I am facing, I am very frustrated and sometimes breaking down to a point where I suffer from a loss of confidence. Those who are close to me would know that I am very much bothered, and went through the Benzoyl Peroxide treatment for my whole face.

The motivation to click the starter was a calling (most likely from God) to start browsing the net for a certain webpage which is acne.org. I started the treatment, and initial breakouts were bad, and I actually went through 3 initial breakouts which is kinda horrible to bare with. I got desperate and just 2 days back I decided to visit a dermatologist which I went a few years back, and insisted I didn't want just another antibiotic which temporarily cures but returns in vast., and chose ACCUTANE. For those who don't know what Accutane is, it is a drug precribed for severe acne sufferers, it reduces the oil production in the glands with a cost of uncertain and massive side effects.

I never even thought of praying for direction, with all my will, I said, F*** it, I'll rather die early than suffer from acne.

In more developed countries, the drug is hardly prescribed and requires blood test and such. But, in this pit we live in, the dermatologist just gave it to me really willingly, cause it is costly.

I went on the drug for 2 days, and even from day 1, I suffered from insomnia and heart pounding, a considerably rare side effect.

I was tired, and such, I couldn't sleep, and felt very much like puking. Despite so, I bogusly pretended alright, and went to the Barbecue just to see how it goes on.

As expected, I couldn't sleep again. I woke up telling my mum I was disturbingly uncomfortable, my heart is pounding too quickly, breathing seems hard, and I couldn't sleep.... She came down stairs with me, and she told me to relax. She prayed, and I went to pray together.

At this point, I cried, I surely didn't know what it takes to just risk my life, I defiled the dependence I should have on Him. Prayed for forgiveness in tears, and thanked my mum.

She told me, she has been continuously praying that God will guard me from the side effects, and show her signs.

I was guided by Him, I always was;

Searching through the net, I am not in the norm, for the people who actually discovered these dreadful side effects are mostly in day 7 or so.

I pictured if I was in day 7 with some high dose or such and suffer from the life-long side effects, and gratefully I prayed thanks.

GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME.
ALL THE TIME, GOD IS GOOD.

Day 5

2009-07-26T08:40:00.000-07:00

Theme: Compassion in Action

Scriptures:

What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him? Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. If one says to him, "Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed,' but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action is dead. [James 2:14-17]

Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. [1 John 3:18]

Prayer Subjects:

1. Renewing of mind and a compassionate heart

2. Seek out practical opportunities to minister to the felt needs of our neighbours in our community

3. A united vision fr God's kingdom rather than our own

Personals:

LORD, I submit myself and all I am to You, I surrender my life to live as a living sacrifice, I just pray that you would guide me through my times of difficulties, and lead me to the promised land, Empower me with your Holy Spirit to strike my compassion of my heart, tell me ways I could reach out to the community, and I will for Your Kingdom to come forth and through it we glorify Your Name. In Jesus' Name, AMEN.

Day 4

2009-07-25T04:13:00.000-07:00

Theme: The Unity of the Church to Love our Nation and Neighbours

Scriptures:

[John 17:20-26]

"My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one. Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me."

"Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am , and to see my glory, the glory you have given me because you loved me before the creation of the world."

"Righteous Father, though the world does not know you, I know you, and they know that you have sent me. I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them."

Prayer Subjects:
1. On be half of the Church- Repent of the sins of pride, strife, contention and distrust. Confess where we have not contributed to the unity of the body of Christ.

2. Continuous work of the Holy Spirit to unite and to strengthen churches to work together to transform communities.

3. Effective networking among all churches in reaching out to all people groups in or nation.

Personals:

I do admit and confess that I sometimes lack the respect towards authority deep down in my shallow heart, and pray for the Holy Spirit to lead me away from sinning against You Lord.

Day 3

2009-07-24T01:50:00.000-07:00

Theme: Love for the People of the Nation

Scriptures:

For I wish that I myself were cursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my brothers, those of my own race. [Romans 9:3]

Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness. When he saw the crowds. he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. Then he said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field." [Matthew 9:35-38]

Prayer Subjects:

1. Confess we have not loved the people of our nation and ask for forgiveness. That we have a compassionate heart and love to reach out to every people group.

2.For spiritual awakening and the harvest of souls amongst the least reached people groups in Malaysia and for more laborers.

3.Churches to be impregnated with vision for growth and church planting for each indigenous or foreign group.

Personal:

Well, as a Malaysian, we are often lead to prejudice towards different races, for the equality among us is just NOT there. I would now confess to the LORD that I have not loved each and everyone of our nation, but also pray that the veils will be destroyed and that all would be viewed as one, which defines what unity is.

Laborers of the churches must also aggravate themselves to reach out, there are souls to be saved out there, so buckle up people!

Day 2

2009-07-23T00:13:00.000-07:00

Alright guys, this is Day 2.

Theme: A love for Malaysia

Acts 17:26

From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live.

Genesis 13:14-15
The LORD said to Abraham after Lot had parted from him, "lift up your eyes from where you are and look north and south, east and west. All the land that you see I will give to you and your offspring forever.

Ruth 1:16-17
But Ruth Replied, "Don't urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the LORD deal with me, be it ever so severely, if anything but death separates you and me."

Prayer Subjects:
1. Thank God for all the blessings and diversity of culture in the nation. Allow the Holy Spirit to search your heart where you have not loved this nation

2. Racial harmony and mutual respect and honour for all races

3.Believers to pledge (swear) our allegiance (loyalty) to God, to honour and love this nation

4. That God may move dramatically to heal the prejudices and racial discord in our nation

5.Release blessings for the state/town you are in

Personal Reflect:

Malaysia is a dynamic place to live in, with no or mere transparency, where people live in integrity and NOT unity. I seriously pray for a respectful heart towards the authorities of this nation, and that they would set up as good role models for the people.

Racial issues has been floating time to time, and I am darn fed-up of talking about it after the Malaysian Study Crisis (LOL! It's really a disaster). So, I just hope that the veil would be taken down, and that God would forgive me for judging someone based on color.

As for Cheras, hopefully it would be a better place to live in with less reckless drivers.

40 Days Fast and Prayer

2009-07-22T02:01:00.000-07:00

Well, as stated above, 40 Days of Fast and Prayer guided with the booklet titled "Love Our Neighbor" by the National Evangelical Christian Fellowship Malaysia (NECF) will be starting today.

Day 1 :A Change of Heart and Mind

Psalms 139:23-24

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is an offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

Psalms 51

Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin,

For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
Against you, you only, have I sinned
and doe what is evil in your sight,
so that you are proven right when you speak
and justified when you judge.
Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
Surely you desire truth in the inner parts;
you teach me wisdom in the inmost place.

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.

Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
and sinners will turn back to you.
Save me from blood guilt, O God,
the God who saves me,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
O Lord, open my lips,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.

In your good pleasure make Zion prosper;
build up the walls of Jerusalem.
Then there will be righteous sacrifices,
whole burnt offerings to delight you;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.

Subject of Prayer:

1.Reconciliation with God- Confess and repent of all hindrances and seek forgiveness for our hypocrisy, superficiality, prejudices, lack of love and compassion.

2.Reconciliation in Church- Pray that broken relationships may be mended and for reconciliation within the body of Christ.

In a multiracial country like ours, many times we question about the position we stand, question about our nationality, and whether if we are taken as a MALAYSIAN. Throughout the years, I always grumble about how nasty Malaysia is and take comparison with other nations.

Over the years, I now realize that Malaysia is our nation, if we want a change, we have to strive towards achieving that change. I believe if all our young leaders of this nation would stay persistent in safeguarding and advancing our own country instead of seeking paths elsewhere, if we pray hard enough for it's progression and not pray hard to leave this shit-hole, we will eventually attain something.

So, lets just cling our hands together and "Be" but not "Act" patriotic, and pray that one day, we will be that difference.

College Cell Barbecue

2009-07-19T08:12:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps, this Friday, our cell will be having a barbecue. It's definitely going to be a wonderful night together. Hope to see you guys there. If there are any inquiries, feel free to contact me. LOL!!

Tagged by Nicole LAM~

2009-07-18T01:55:00.000-07:00

1. Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
*Hmm, my ass… No… My Neck

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
*Felt like I woke up

3. Who was the last person/people you took photo with?
* Myself

4. Would you consider yourself spoilt?
* No, I guess.

5. Will you ever donate blood?
* Of course, if I can. (Seriously Underweight)

6. Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
* Duh~

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
* Yea, I want dead people dead. (Zombie-phobia)

8. What does your last message say?
* LOL

9. What are you thinking right now?
* Thinking whether you are thinking what I am thinking?

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
* NO

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
*2 a.m. ish.

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
* I am not wearing one.

13. Is someone in your mind right now?
* Nope

14. Who was the last person who text you?
* SOOK YEE

Tag 10 "lucky" people do this quiz.
-Zhi Quan
-Rachel
-Tau Min
-Ming Yee
-Chui Wen
-Ah Xin
-Lee Fen
-Frog
-Xiao Lian
-Jun Yean

15. Who is number two (Rachel) having a relationship with?
* Hmm….No one?

16. Is number three (Tau Min) a male or female?
* Female

17. If number 7 (Lee Fen) and number 1 (Zhi Quan) get together will it be good?
* Hahahahahaha, it depends~

18. What is number 1 (Zhi Quan) studying?
* I don’t think he has made his mind.

19. Is number 4 (Ming Yee) single?
* Hmm…..Most probably~

20. Say something about number 6 (Ah Xin).
* Hmm, I don’t really have an idea.

21. What you think of number 3 (Tau Min) and number 6 (Ah Xin) being together?
* Oh Man, wouldn’t even dare to imagine.

22. Describe number 9 (Xiao Lian).
* Very nice to talk to, and a lovely friend.

23. Do you like number 8 (Frog)?
* Love her, damn nice to tease and wonderful to squeeze.

Persistence

2009-07-18T01:17:00.000-07:00

In the journey of shouldering the cross, sometimes it is reasonably hard to stay focus and persistent. The world has just too much to offer, and temptations are already grasping your heart before even noticing.

Sometimes I fear that I would comply to the norms and be left out of my Lord's sight. I am struggling to cling on His guidance, but at the same time fear that His arms will not be over me forever.

To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life. [Romans 2:7]

I desire this eternal life LORD, I desire, and therefore I will trigger the pulse of my heart to beat for You and to shine for You. Forgive me my sins, and help me to be a better christian. In Jesus Name, AMEN.

Trust

2009-07-16T00:25:00.000-07:00

I've always had this feeling of walking down a long thunderous street, where cheers and laughter or sometimes quarrel from unknown faces are silent purely because of my neglect and ignorance. Thousands of hundreds of thought brushed pass my mind, and often without conclusion.

Just to keep you guys updated about my personal life, I actually passed the written examination of the Japanese Government Scholarship (Monbukagakusho), and was admitted for an interview. Overall the interview was OK, but they did struck me to really work a lot harder academic wise. The result will be released around next week or so, but the final decision is to be made by the Japanese Government which drags the approval until January next year. (Getting pass the written examination was definitely God's Blessing. Cause, out of roughly 400 student, I was 1 of the 20 top-listed fella, with a mark of 18/100 in maths. Believe me, I never even dare to think I will be accepted to the interview. )

However, I am also applying for University of Queensland for Economics, which requires me to take flight in February!

Things are getting messy and I don't know what to do.

I had a confirmation, I just don't know if it is from God my LORD.

Despite the complication, I am not anxious as I use to be, cause I fully depend on Him, cause I am affirmative that He will only provide the good, or perhaps the best for me.

Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well. [Matthew 6:33]

All I'll do is to trust in You, and work as You will.

Prayers:

Father Jesus, I pray for everyone who is having similar situations like me, and for people facing complications of life who has lost the direction to pursue. I pray for You to cultivate their trust in You. I am convinced that You will intend for them the best for their lives, and I just pray they'll look upon You for signs. In Jesus Name I Pray, AMEN.

Relationships

2009-07-15T01:02:00.000-07:00

As humans, we deem to construct relationships all the time, some of them can be a short instant acquaintance, some can last for a few years, and some can call for a lifetime.

What about the relationship beyond a life-time?

Well, if you realize this blog's title is LIFE THROUGH JESUS, obviously what I am talking about here is not some infamous drama line where prince-charming tends to make a LOVE YOU FOREVER statement. DUH~ I guess you're pretty sure what I am talking here is about the relationship with God.

Well, to be honest, building a relationship with God is nevertheless likewise a relationship with a friend or lover. So, imagine if you only call your friend when you're in need of HELP, and see if he responds, LOL!

It's rational that if you treasure the feelings between each other, you'll phone that someone once in awhile, perhaps just to say hi, and listen to what he or she has got to say, and maybe spending some time going out together and you know~

The point here is, are you a good listener? In all relationships, it's important that you listen more than u speak, cause if you talk too much, the whole conversation will be congested with "ME ME ME ME ME, and I I I I I I", come on lah, personally I wouldn't want to speak with such a ego wey~

Hmm, there is this verse in the bible that supports the message:

My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry [James 1:19]

When it comes to the relationship of God, it is likewise as important to listen, and here comes another scripture, ta-da!!

Listen carefully to my words; let your ears take in what I say. [Job 13:17]

Alright, I guess it's enough about the listening thingy, but it is almost as important to have the heart, compassion and love to be attentive to listen right? So, cultivate the loving heart in your soul, as Christians, let us move towards the direction of our Father's unfailing love through listening to his commands and decrees.

Prayers:

O Father LORD, I pray that You would guide us to be attentive listeners of Your words, to be sensitive enough for your signs, and to be eager enough to seek. I pray that the Holy Spirit will fall among us, and to give us strength as we proceed in faith, to love the people even if they don't in return. Give us this insanely strong heart and wisdom like Yours, so that we will not be weary in doing good. Let us be confident that you are our guidance beyond a lifetime relationship, in Jesus Name We Pray, AMEN!

Courage

2009-07-14T01:43:00.000-07:00

In life, there are points where we are to make choices, to make plans, to decide our directions. The critical question here is whether you have the courage to conquer the anxiety of our heart to proceed with the choices with no doubts.

Proverbs 19:21

“Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.”

In Subang Rally 2009, I learned that purpose is more important than plans, more powerful than plans and exists before plans are even made. It is important to know WHO WE ARE before we can know WHAT TO DO. (A big hand of applause to the moderators of the subang rally webpage to put the sermons into notes) For anyone who is interested in visiting the official webpage, please click here)

Courage is of great importance when we yield to make a difference, to make a change, and even to live our days! Millions of thousands of people out there in the world face an issue receiving the adequate amount of courage to make that crucial step. Opportunities are everywhere in this world, the problem is whether you have the courage to grab it and not to let it vanish.

As Christians, we look upon God for our direction, we desire the confirmation before taking an act, BUT, wait a minute, how many of you out there have the courage to do as He commands?

Again in subang rally 2009, I heard a story of this 15 years old girl who went up to her guru discipline (Malay) and ask her if she could be of any help (purely based on God’s calling) and despite a “NO” from the guru discipline, she had been a blessing to her. I don’t really remember the details but in the end, the guru discipline agrees to make official the school’s CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP with just full credits in SPM.

The message sent to me is just like what pastor Andy said, it is not utopian, and examples need not to be drawn from distant nations like the U.S. but just around us. The courage of the 15 year old girl to obey God’s calling made a difference, can we do something similar?

And for non-Christian readers of this blog, I would just want to bless you guys and totally appreciate the care to even bare to read it. THANK YOU!!!!!

If you’re those in a phrase of deciding whether to believe or in certain areas unconvinced, I just pray for God to give you the courage to speak with Him, and pray that God will sent his Holy Spirit to guide you into living a life with Him. It takes minutes to receive Him, but it takes a life long journey to learn, understand and try to be like Him.

If you’re those who is persistent not to believe or for any reason unable to take this step, I pray that God will take away spiritual blindness that is casted among you, and that He will still bless your lives throughout until the time that you have the courage to proceed into taking another step to understand.

For my fellow Christian bros and sis out there, I pray that God gives us the strength to obey His commands; I pray that we will go our limits to reach to even that one unsaved soul! I pray for mutual bonding among us, even if we’re far apart, and that together we can change the world, because I am convinced that a Christian world would be a better place to live in. In Jesus Name I pray, AMEN!

The Beginning (Desire)

2009-07-13T00:14:00.000-07:00

First and foremost, I would like to dedicate this blog to the LORD, my savior, who died on the cross for our sins 2000 years ago. I am new and young in faith, but through You and Your strength that is at work within me, I believe that I would make a difference, and be the difference. I would do my best to maintain this blog as often as possible, and to you dear readers outside, I just hope you guys would have fun!

The first topic I would be discussing about is:

DESIRE

"But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul." [Deuteronomy 4:29] (NIV)

I would like to share a personal story.

In my form 5 days , I was one of my school's English debater. The conductor of our team was Ms. CM Tan, and Ms. Jane Loh. The preparations were harsh, and sometimes frustrating overwhelmed with tears and sweat. Days were tough and it gradually proceeded into the first round. It was out of complete ignorance that we won and made it through the next, and the next until the Finals. Throughout the debate, Ms. CM Tan always picked the ONE to draw the lots deciding on our stand as government or opposition, and miraculously we always get what we wanted. "Coincidences and Luck" I thought, but never really panicked as we basically were familiar with both stands. It was until the Finals that I noticed the divine power within.

The Finals was a phenomena, one that would leave a great impression for many years to come. It was then when I was the chosen ONE. This wasn't like previous cases where we were well prepared, I strongly know in my heart that if we were to get opposition, I would be a rug head and messy incidences will occur. The only person to depend on now is God, and when CM prayed and called me to draw the lots, I didn't know why, but the one of the two lots in front of me just appeared to be uniquely special, and a calling I heard was to pick it up, a calling from my heart, and guess what, We thanked God for the government stand.

A year went by, and it came to the day I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal LORD and savior. At that point, I was uncomfortable with it, the first sight I saw people worshiping God with all their strength and all their might, jumping in joy, I was trembled and disgusted. One christian friend of mine just gave me a go and told me to go out and receive the LORD, and I nodded with full unwillingness.

In 2008 December, my dear friend Mr. Ker brought me to a youth camp, called B.U.R.N.. Knowing I am a christian despite being a touch and go one, I went, hoping to see changes. And "poof", I transformed! Nah~ But I got really excited and wanted to look deeper within, deeper into the roots, throwing aside every thought and prayed to God like never before. And things have gradually came towards the good, God performed many miraculous signs in my life and eventually gave me my direction and purpose.

The END

Well, coming back to the topic of desire, I would want to challenge you whether if your heart is devoted enough, whether if your desires for His love is fading due to the bizarre of life? If that is the case, have you desired to make a difference, to depend on Him and desire that He takes control?

In Jesus name, I pray that everyone out there who felt a sense of incompetence in their life to surrender it all to You, because I know You are worthy, We desire for Your love, and desire for Your Rest, Peace, and Joy. Come into all our lives and take us to a level of understanding like never before, burn the desires of our heart, and give us the courage to seek your face. As it is written in Matthew 7:8 "For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." In Jesus' Mighty Name, AMEN.